29.6.10

This is Dedicated to Dayen

Hello D, thank you to inspire me writing for you in this morning, when I really should take a bath and hit the school to buy prom ticket. So how are you doing, sweetheart? Anyway, none of these post I made literally dedicated to you or replied to yours, but this one.
Don't bother :---)
I'm writing the posts for all those who read, and if it gets in to you, I'm pleased but don't get a heartache, all of these are just another judgmental doodles of mine. xoxo

28.6.10

So Just Let Go

Heartbreak? All I know it was real.
Yes, some people really should leave, so you have enough space for the better one. Maybe in time you don't want anything else, you don't want anyone else, you just want him/her and full stop. It's naivety you can deny. Even I.. I've been the phase of not wanting to let go. Then I made a thought, it was just too selfish to keep people for your own happiness when even you yourself could not see the future anymore. Memories, no matter how pretty they were, are sort of past. You can't move forward if you keep looking back. I did and I feel a bit regret of it. I lost my time because of staying too long, waiting too long, going nowhere, being brought and driven by memories. That's pathetic. And it's been hard for me to release how I felt back then. I know that unease will stay, but time almost can cure every pain. You just need to know and keep your chin up. Damn those heartbreakers, just move on. Life won't wait. No time could rewind. Forgive and forget. Eventually, you'll find out what God bigger plan is.

24.6.10

Because We're Talking About Bad Boys


taken from here

I haven't found one. Or maybe I have but I did not really pay attention to them. They are attractive. Bad boys are attractive. But, I never really fall for them. I'm not gonna throw any judgments, about boys, about things they do, about how they see and treat the girls. That would be pretty unfair to them.
Bad is conditional. Bad boys are even more conditional. Smoking doesn't patch them a-bad-boy-label. Neither drunken nor driving madly.
How about womanizing?
How about offering girls some hopes then walking away?
Those are bad. But girls, indeed, love to enjoy their games. Girls eventually have already known what the future might talk upon the relationship between them, it may turn to relationshit but somehow.. They don't give a damn. Keep going. Broken-hearted. Crying.
It's important to see around, listen to their sayings, yes, it can be wrong, but it also can be correct. You know your heart always can feel the best from the very first time.
Anyway, for me personally, I'd love to join their games. But not in a serious way. Crime should be paid with crime. Yes?

22.6.10

I Know I've Changed


What makes life seem force us to change? There ain't no force. It's just us. Here. Walking through the days with opened eyes so we simply can see how we can survive. Else, how we can overcome unfortunate things and transform them as some additions to the infinite luck we earn. We are in charge of our own crisis. So better don't make our own crisis. Life seems complicated cause we insist on making that complicated, yes?
How would you see me now?
I'm practically not somebody who I used to be. I don't wear heels as often as I did. Neither make up. I don't visit Starbucks. I save my money for books I want the most. It feels bad for me to splurge on clothes. I spend my weekend with my family. I don't crave for Frozen Yogurt.

And this far, I'm happy with it.
How lack of blue mascara doesn't bother me and my mood plus how I can be true to people I face everyday.

I know I've changed.
For whatever it takes, I grab all of the changes as bless. None of them should be cursed of. I still go for my favourite Caramel Frappucino, my favourite patty, and clothes. But my action towards them are completely different. Enjoying them as the sparkling things only, not the main ones I have to get and be delighted of.

I know I've changed.
The way I react to problems. How I encounter them with more thoughts. How it's easier for me to make good decision. And to be emotional sometimes. Emotionally well-mannered, for sure.

Changes are good. Do you change? Ask yourself and smile for it.
Believe me, you need them.

20.6.10

C

I'm telling you about C. Yes, C is pretty. And amazing. C got almost everything. And lose almost nothing. But C, C feels lonely. Simply cause C can't count the bless God give in. C drenches in pain and gives no damn about her surrounding. C is so focused on pain in her life that C doesn't care that people might cheer. C smiles a lot. C cries a lot. C is nonchalant. C is.. C could be anyone. Anyone who seems so careless. About their own lives. Anyone who gives too much space for eerie things called heartbreak and envious.

How about embracing the bless? Have a nice day, sweets.

19.6.10

Favourite Love Stories

Lately, I spent my lazy time with novels by Nicholas Sparks. It's kinda weird reminding how I used to back off from romance genre and dive in wonderfully restless Chuck Palahniuk or let myself dream about Coraline. The most lovely love story I'd ever known was just Stardust. That was pretty enough for me and now... I can stuck with The Last Song or A Walk to Remember for hours. Both I've watched those films, but reading them gave me another feelings. Way deeper and get me emotionally involved more. I find it was nice to shrug in normal love story. Something that we may find cheesy or just too ordinary. There's nothing to do with Vampires or Werewolves, no fairies or witches. Neither Party Crashers and a drop out medschool guy. This kind seems regular but real touching. Just another popular boy, another regular girl, used to hate each other, then... fall in love. then fall out of love. then get back into love. Well, that's somehow nice.

In addition, the heartbreak part... wow, wrenching the heart. Nicholas Sparks is genius and his books are magical. The best part I love is the fact that love got many ways to break your heart and.. heal it.
Something I've never realised before. I end up with getting mesmerized with natural conversations he put on his novels. Understandably charming and real. They make you dream of prince charming or mister nice guy or maybe just another jock that really care about you. Pretty in a usual way.

I guess-slash-hope this won't be a temporary love. I'd love to keep my favor for this genre for such a long term, call me late, but I've just found another interesting things which open both my mind and eyes. I've found things that tug my heartstring and those are good.
Love story is good. Hell yeah.

It;s Your Untidy Hair

I take no parts of me for you
You simply own everything so I could just stare
Staring at your untidy hair
Or let's try some jokes
Because our laughter is worth it

I can see your cutest smirk
It can not go wrong
Just like your untidy hair
It can be tidy
But we both know untidy will do better

Just like me, plus you.
It can not go wrong. Yeah, we always do better. Better as ever.

3.6.10

"Di saat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang,
ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkannya.
Di saat kamu mulai tidak mencintainya,
ingatlah saat pertama kamu jatuh cinta padanya.
Di saat kamu mulai bosan dengannya,
ingatlah selalu saat terindah bersamanya.
Di saat kamu ingin menduakannya,
bayangkan jika dia selalu setia.
Saat kamu ingin membohonginya,
ingatlah di saat dia jujur padamu.
Maka kamu akan merasakan arti dia untukmu.
Jangan sampai di saat dia sudah tidak di sisimu,
kamu baru menyadari semua arti dirinya untukmu.
Yang indah hanya sementara.
Yang abadi adalah kenangan.
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati.
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari.
Tidak mudah mencari yang hilang.
Tidak mudah mengejar impian.
Namun yang lebih susah adalah mempertahankan yang ada.
Sebab, walaupun tergenggam bisa terlepas juga akhirnya.
Ingatlah pada pepatah,
'Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai,
maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini.'
Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif.
Hidup bagaikan mimpi,
seindah apapun, ketika tersadar semuanya sirna tak berbekas;
Rumah mewah bagai istana,
harta benda yang tak terhitung,
kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa,
tetapi ketika nafas terakhir tiba,
sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi.
Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki.
Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan.
Apalagi yang mau disombongkan.
Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani.
Jangan terlalu perhitungan.
Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri.
Jangan suka sakiti sesama,
apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita.
Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih.
Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah.
Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa.
Tak ada yang tak bisa diikhlaskan.
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan."

Worth to read, worth to feel. taken from aldhin's.


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