Dis-satisfaction

I took a step back and realised, what's it in life if we're not grateful? What's it in life if we feel less than we should? What's it in life if we constantly compare and then break down? What's it in life if we don't decide to be happy for it?
Among things we have taken for granted, love we simply ignore, warmth we do not fully embrace, forgotten hug, things we've asked for so long, the question is: are we capable to accept? Are we capable to receive and being grateful for every single wish that has come true?
Do we still have an open heart and clear recognition towards each of His gifts?
Or are we trapped amidst wishes we never fully wish, questions we do not necessary to have, things we never need to have, foolish cycle of wrong idealism, that somehow drive us into an ungrateful being? Through following those questions, I found answers deep in my heart.

I still remember the days when I pray for things I have now, and all I can feel is a fleeting glimpse of serenity, which I know won't last long, but really doing well in making me feeling complete.

My Incredible Lover

My incredible lover is not your incredible lover.

He might be the same tall guy, gorgeously dressed, and have a smart sense of humour, but he is not your incredible lover.

My incredible lover might be your favorite guy, he might be awesome at throwing smarty-ass jokes and excellence at talking numbers. He might be good at calculating GDP or blabbering much about given politics, he might be a good sport, and be as dandy as he can be.

My incredible lover is a good, balance companion. He will tell you various interesting stories about days and lullabies about sweet nights. You can find him smoking American cigs or probably with pint of beers. The next morning, you will see him weighing himself with lbs of dumbell and doing bench presses, or simply working his glutes to do pile of squats.

My incredible lover is one fine man. He is the man of his words, he's working on being good at it. He's taking care of the business. He rolls his own dice.


My incredible lover, is my incredible lover.

He might be the same guy who ever called you honey, the same guy who kissed you good nite, said sweet words, promised you the world, the future, yesterday, and the day after.



but after all, my incredible lover is my one and only incredible lover.

Ketika Kamu Sedang Sakit

...jadi kepikiran banyak sekali hal. Bisa menghubungi teman-teman lama, sekadar sapa via media sosial. Ngobrol dengan papa mama di jam 8 pagi. Skipping my gym routine, and miss it a lot. Buka-buka diary lama dan amazed dengan beberapa wishlist cemen yang berhasil di-ceklis. Dari mulai punya sepatu Jeffrey Campbell sampai punya penghasilan xxxx per bulan. Kalau tidak ada momen duduk diam begini, pasti pikiran akan terus lari kemana-mana. Bisa kembali memikirkan cita-cita berikutnya, sementara ini masih tentang lanjut Master di Amerika. Berhasil menyelesaikan buku yang dibeli waktu pertama banget mau masuk capital market, Young Money. Kepikiran punya cita-cita lain, tapi sementara ini rahasia dulu.

Ketika lagi sakit, jadi tau banget harga mahalnya sehat. Tau banget betapa indahnya hari-hari biasanya di kantor kerja sambil hahahihi. Ketika lagi sakit, jadi sempet nulis blog lagi. Well, Tuhan selalu menjawab doa kita dengan cara-cara luar biasa meskipun kadang sederhana...

About People who are Hurtful

This morning, I got an interesting chat with my co-workers towards religion, kindness, and wisdom. Well, it starts from religion then it rolls into other deeper values in life. We both have different religion, but we tend to see things in kinda similar way. The talk keeps rolling until one point we talk about hurtful people. Or people who tend to hurt us. Or people who act so stank you want to throw them with anything.

One wisdom taken: people who tend to be hurtful, probably, because their hurt is leaked. I myself got interested with this point. For me, it is kinda true. Somebody can be really hurtful and cruel because something was so harmful in his/her life. It takes more kindness and wisdom to relieve this world from pain and hurt. We don't need so much hatred, we need more love. The hardest thing probably is to forgive those hurtful people. Those who might do you wrong, never forgive, and act like there's nothing wrong with them. But what for holding onto that kind of toxicity?

Just go ahead and be kind. And some people, some people might be part of your history but not your destiny.