Disclosure

I kiss slowly the cast of your shadow.

I wanna catch your breath. I wanna feel your veins. I wanna let this disclosure got us tangled.
Make me sure that we're alive.
Make me sure that these are lies.
Let me feel that we are the ones who roll the dice.
Stay for a second or two.
if infinity, for us, seems like a concept that is impossible and forever is not meant to.

Brave

You think life is good when you can afford everything.
When dreams are within your reach.
When you can travel around the world.
When you hang out with somebody you adore too much.
When you finally have a job.

You think life is a good when you can show people that you're finally doing good.
When you have anything that others only can dream of.
When for a while you realize your life is perfect.

But how about little tickle we get when we laugh so hard?
How about long time conversation that nourishes your soul?
You can have it all, but happiness does not require you to have it all.
You just have to own some courage to be cut open.
Happiness is risky.
Yet it is not that otherworld. It's common.
You just need to allow yourself to see, and be fuckin brave.

Fragile

It is pretty horrible to being involved with people when you are vulnerable. Vulnerable people are dangerous people. Sensitive people are dangerous people. They might bring you butterflies, warmest hugs, thoughtful words, and sweetest moment.

But once they explode, baby, you can't runaway from the burst.

Life Begins At The End of Comfort Zone

We are imperfect human beings, covered with worries and restlessness.
Running from things we want, hiding from our dreams.
We seek comfort, we make comfort as our refuge. We got stifled by future, choked by past.
We never realize we chase after tomorrow.
We never feel we have enough.

There is something we all look for, balance. One thing we might forget, we possess such balance through moving.
Keep moving, push through. It will always feel better than just staring blankly at the ceiling with tons of  emptiness we cannot contain anymore.

Our Generation

Our generation sits on the best lap of the world. Crunching tons of emails everyday, struggling through news feed, swimming towards the race of information. Unstoppable flow. Enormous.

Our generation views from the best spot of the world. We love, we share, though we are apart. We look for wifis more than we look for best friends. We sink ourselves on couch for hours just to click on one entertaining instagram account.

Our generation runs at the best circuit of the world. Encircling, never ending loop of edited real life. Our generation also do not have to remember anything. We can store, we can keep anything we want outside our body. We can use our brain less and less. We can trust ourselves less and less, too.

Yet, our generation also has the power to change the world.
Let there be an unstoppable flow of information,
let there be hotspots everywhere,
let there be loop of virtual world.

Our generation holds the key
to love, if we, consciously, choose. The question is : do we?


FPL

Attachment

When happiness only comes with reasons, with several terms and condition,
can it be called as a real happiness? Or is it that infamous attachment?

Yes, we attach ourselves to stuffs, to people.
What's the fundamental of it? Our own fears? Our disbelief to ourselves?
Or can it be caused of both?

Attachment wouldn't be so bad if things were rolling well.

But, how if it lately turns into kind of addiction?
If it turns into a disability to hold your own pride, an incompetence to face the truth, then you cheat on yourself, or worse you finally feel that it's okay to hurt yourself?

Like, for real, we all have to learn it hard way :
we love because we have so much,
not because we need anything in return.

Some Thoughts on Loving

Particularly, we always can tell when we are in love. We feel chemical rush, shallow breath, anxiety, which blend into one deep feeling that fulfills the heart. We start to giggle much towards unfunny things, realize that blue sky is beautiful, and wonder why we are so happy.

With these people, yes, I'm not talking about someone  you're committed to get married with, or you're in a relationship with,
I'm talking about people you love, in general,
you feel life a little bit brighter.

You surely can not define how that is happening to you, though there are several scientific facts about hormones and stuffs that affect.

We somehow just simply love. Feeling days are right when we're with them, feeling a calming sense when we can help them go through their harsh days, listen to their stories, soothe their restlessness, carry their tears, or be a shoulder to cry on.
We do it without wanting anything in return.
We just simply do. Fully, unselfishly.

When we love, sure we get to be emotional beings. We might be disappointed, might be torn, and perhaps left. But can things be worse than that? Love itself is a power. You can choose letting those negativity eat you out or let the what you have inside win.
Finally, we can learn how to overcome our fears.

Being with those whom you love brings you power to face tomorrow.

So my wish, may the love remain blooming,
whether it is a loud bright thing like fire-crackers,
or a complete silence kept in the deepest part of your heart.