Too Much Thinking Will Kill You

Holiday means spare time.
Spare time (for me) means thinking.
I love to think about everything.
"too much thinking will kill you" someone told me few years a go.
Gosh, I only take those words as proverbs not more.

Even I know that well, how my own thoughts persistently try to kill me.
To cut my happiness.
To drown my highest hope.
To burn my deepest dream.
but somehow often my own thought helps me to get out from hell.
I try to be logical, and I want to be a logical person.

Sometimes, you understand and know something very well, but you resist it.
you know the facts but you keep denying.
not you who deny, but your heart.

I did it. My heart denied the facts.
Some say, love is a matter of heart and illogical.
I used to be like that.
rarely using my brain for heart's matter and
at the end I was the one who swallowed my own pain.

Love shuts your eyes then love slaps your face,
the one that will keep you sane is your own brain and your own thought.

after all, I got a conclusion,
Too much thinking will kill you, but not thinking at all will make you die faster.

with love,
F