What's There in Rushing?

I know, there are many times we choose not to embrace, or probably unconsciously were skipped. You skip this, skip that. Don't enjoy every spoon of your meal, don't carefully listen to your buddies when they're telling you things. You choose to get busy and drown in your own thoughts. Wandering nowhere, or everywhere.
It's obviously not a sin, right? But sometimes you will come to a second when you try to recall what have happened, in detail, the whole week.
Can you?
We live in a fast, extremely fast, motion where information flows are uncontrollable —if you're not willing to control it and when distractions are everywhere. It happens to all of us.
But do you want to feel that, the weird feeling when you hardly recall what you've been through?
Guess the answer would be no.
Why don't slow down? It's not always about who's the fastest, who's the quickest. It's about living righteously with full of consciousness. When we rush, we get nothing but the rushing itself.
So, take your time in doing things. Delay a little bit. Sit and think. Read cautiously. Stay in love with the business and of course the people.

Later the recalling thing, I believe, will be far easier.

FPL

Those Who Are Brave Enough To Live The Dreams

It gets me hassled and enthusiastic at the same time to see people who are currently living their dreams. People surround me do so. They tend to dream a lot and make them come true. They go for what they want, live with the spirit vigorously, and all I know, those people rarely regret a thing about what they do, even worse for what they did.

One of my very best friends is gonna go to Japan this September to get his exchange program done. I know from the very first start that he really wanted it. His passion for studying, meeting people and having a smart converse, plus volunteering is somewhat making him more alive than any other people you can meet beside his hobby of traveling, culinary, and extreme sports.
That's just the first case in point.

Another friend of mine shares the belief of living the dreams, too.  She does not take a big leap like the first case did but I know she's on her way. All you can see now she is living the way she wants it, probably recklessly, doing whatever she is likely to do, but if you look deeper, and know her more, this darling can be blessings to people surround her by bringing beauty in her very own way. She has a great great passion in arts and in life, every tiny piece of her daily activity, you will always see her beaming with a touch of art. Anywhere, anytime. Of course for the talent, you cannot say much. She's got everything you would dream for being a pure artist.
It's the second.

Talking about my boyfriend's goodness will sound like boasting, but really if you got questions about automotives, he's the man. From the most expensive to the very moderate type, any part in between, how to do what he always state as eco-driving to save your fuel, how to shift the gear in an extremely quick pace under 150kms/hour, and many more. He was going to Malaysia several months a go, with a team named Nakoela to join the Shell-Eco Marathon Asia. I ALWAYS ENVY HIM FOR TAKING THE MAJOR HE ACTUALLY REALLY LOVES.
I know now he should pay really a lot for it, but everything's worth it.
When you live your dreams, everything's worth it.

Yes, I got tons of stories that would take pages if typed here.
They above were just cases. People who are very close to me, not in my family circle, but undoubtedly inspire me, almost everyday, to live my dreams. I still got some more I barely can mention them. My kind-hearted best friend who always do everything sincerely, my childhood friend which is now doing great with an organizational stuffs and still write, those I know always dance for the sake of life, those who write and keep the blog running because probably sharing is their passion, my best friend who joins a lot of, yeah extremely a lot of events to seek for the zest of working, some of my lecturers I know well and their passion of knowledge. Those cool people. Who never stop to look cooler than anyone else who do not do so.

All I know, it's never too late to find out what's ours, live them, and be blessings for other people.
The rest never matters much.

About Writer and Writing

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As a writer, you should be honest.

You try to pick up all details you can ever get then spoiling them all to your readers. Showing them evidence of your thoughts that somehow can be way provoking or worse, mind-fucking. Everyone can write, yet it takes to someone who is very strong-willed to be a writer. Not an easy job though.
You have to drown deeper, dig deeper, into your own imagination, be safe in your thoughts, proud of them, concentrate on your stories, and the most important thing, enjoy every process when tons of idea spilling out.

Writing is never about fulfilling the demand of everyone. Yes, it is about producing, but a little bit different. Every piece of work tells and builds different path.
You can choose any genre you love, you can let the either which darkest side of you who speaks without feeling offended by others, why?
Because it’s a piece of writing and anyone can write whatever they want.
Sometimes, it sucks, you know, when you run out of idea and it is inevitable. That is why again a writer or someone who literally loves to write has to always move, travel, and treasure everything deeper.
You have to feel more because without feeling anything what you write you cannot retell it perfectly or fail to give the best picture.

You should be very sensitive and sensible at the same time. You always have to improve how you think.

You can’t stay the same.
You have to read everything. You should learn from Murakami and his best pathetic love stories ever. You should know how David Sedaris could be that funny and sarcastic. You should eat the piece of working by David Wallace Foster and growing up with his notorious this-is-water thought.
You probably will love Jane Austen with her classic touch of feminist romance.
Or you will get a few nerve-wrecking moments reading Rant, Fight Club, or Pygmy by the loveliest Chuck Palahniuk.

You can choose which one you like. You can be anyone you want to be with your piece of writing. You can represent yourself as a good joker, as a storyteller, or someone who try to be quite intellectual just like me mentioning those famous writers above. Or you want to be a blogger, a pure blogger that share everything in your daily life, or someone who spill weird yet amazing fantasy like Neil Gaiman.
It's up to you.

Writers are not only writers. They are those who are brave enough to let you know who they are to the world or

at least how they want to be perceived. Congratulate them, befriend with them, or simply just be one.

Suggesting Positive Vibes

taken from weheartit.com

Hawthorne Studies tell the fact that people who are treated well and right will increase their productivity towards things they do, or in industrial case, produce. It is a genuine example that treating people good will set up stuffs to some even better condition, and surely beyond expectation.

Based on what I learnt in one of my class above, I deduct that when you spread good things to your surrounding, they will happily respond the same as you hope for or even more than that, simply because people love  to be treated well. To be seen off of their titles, money, beauty, or clothes. Love to be respected as they are.

No matter you think how cool or how awesome you are, and yes people around you tell you so, just don't forget to...love much them back. Support them when they need. Spread and build positive vibes around.
You will get more than you give. Always.

HAVE A GOOD DAY!
FPL

Vaga

You might see the world differently from any other people,

thus, travel a lot.

Know more, see more. Feel more.
Know differently, see differently. Feel differently.

Keep yourself inspired by your surrounding.

Jakarta - Purwokerto - Surabaya - Jember - Denpasar - Jember - Surabaya - Jakarta

A long holiday trip, not a splurge one, yet teaching me much the real meaning of going out,

on the train from St. Jatinegara - St. Purwokerto with beloved mom

A Sneaking View of Gunung Slamet, Purwokerto

Purwokerto

After a catching a night train from Purwokerto - Good morning, Surabaya!

A Chandelier, St. Gubeng, Surabaya

A Map of Jember

Tg. Papuma Beach, Jember

The Roll of Waves, Tg. Papuma

Looks like Puncak, yes? It is Rembangan, Jember

Who doesn't know this? Yes, a part of Garuda Wisnu Kencana, Bali

The notable, famous, true beauty of strength reflects on... Tanah Lot, Bali

Surabaya - Madura

...of traveling.

#visitIndonesia


“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” – Mark Twain


Anyway, besides traveling, photography helps me celebrating the beauty of things and life, even from the littlest ones.
all of these pictures belonged to my Instagram, feel free to follow @erinplstr and let's share the beauty of smallest stuffs.<3

2014

all pictures taken from here

The truth is...
I just want to travel a lot, take a bunch of beautiful pictures, and love you to the most.
See you in a few years.

Contagious

Hey, I found this pict from here and it really went with my thought. Contagious things are eerie. You know, how certain people can affect you and your life easily. Their methods, their ways of seeing life which sometime don't go with you but.. got you infected.
Let us take me as the example.
I'm not a beauty addict. Far from it. I enjoy mostly myself in my room reading books. It's more comfortable plus relaxing than staying hours to get a back massage. True. I know what I treasure but somehow another spirit spreads to me.
My mom loves beauty salon. Not so much, but she takes care of everything, and somehow, in a time, I realise I go to beauty salon more often than I used to do.
Contagious.

It's just the simplest one. Now can you imagine how they can affect you? People. Their thoughts. Their acts. Their judgments. Life goes on that way, demandingly contagious. It is like flu virus. You can get it if you don't pay any attention to yourself.

Then I see it is important to choose our ways to interact with people around us. Let us hold our self esteems. Don't get easily intimidated by someone's bad mood. Be free and make the protection from the contagious bad things.
and for sure..
to open up to the good things.
So.. just like the picture tells. Enthusiasm and pessimism are contagious. Like anything else.
Which one should we choose? Guess, we all know the answer.
Spread the good things, be valuable, and let live.

It Gave Me an Impact

taken from here.

This morning, I woke up to nothing. I grabbed my blackberry and saw everything around. I exactly knew my holiday was gonna be ended soon. So I decided to take those novels I'd bought weeks a go. Some Nicholas Sparks' and Neil Gaiman's. Both are my favourite. Different genre but really got my way. I finished The Last Song in teary eyes. Always got me cried out.

Was it me or the novel that so cheesy?

You ought to read that novel. Seems another normal love story, but too pretty, and too true. It seemed to tell you about your regular days and it gave me an impact because... it was all normal. It could happen to anyone.
The end of the book?
Happy ending. I also fall for happy ending. The main role got her grip, she followed her passion and got back to life. Everyone should do like that, shouldn't we?

It really got me soft-hearted. :)

I want to go back to my grip. I want to write as much as I did. How I could post many things in a day. I want to take good pictures as many as I took.
I want to be positive in every thing I face. I want to spill some love, more laughters.
I want to buy a lot of pretty novels. Good novels that bring me impact like this one I read today. I want to do my best, in every single deed. I want to share my effort with everyone. I want to forgive things I said I could not. I want to be what I want to be. With alll of my ability and passion and God's given.

Thank Nicholas Sparks for giving me a kick.
I want to make the most of everything. I realise, God always puts his Grace in the right place.
And I should be grateful. I should stop worrying about...everything and be sincerely kind.

Have a good day, Sweethearts.

Neil Gaiman Says...

“Sometimes you wake up. Sometimes the fall kills you. And sometimes, when you fall, you fly.”

So don't be afraid to take step and going down, eventually we'll find a way to feel better. Eventually, we'll get rid of people that bother us much. We will stop restating ourselves as losers as they made us feel to be. We'll find our way to feel happier with people who really respect you and never let you down.
They exist. Some who truly don't realise that they make us feel bad. So just don't care. Let intimidation get into us. We're bigger than this. If losers exist, they are not those who fail but those who talk and declare too much. If losers exist, they are those who quit earlier. SO DON'T QUIT. Move forward. Tell the world that being nice is just another crapshit if you don't do it sincerely. Tell the world that everyone is seeking for attention so let's throw some judgmental thoughts to improve everything.
Be weirdly good. Let's fall then FLY. Cause every moment happens once. You always can start it all over again but stain you left exist in everyone's thought. It never fades.
Make our own marks, let no badness go in.


Me? I'm happy and thank God for what He's given for me.
For every chances.
For good people and moments He keep around me.
For every bad people He take far from me.
and Neil Gaiman also says..

“Lives are snowflakes - forming patterns we have seen before, as like one another as peas in a pod (and have you ever looked at peas in a pod? I mean, really looked at them? There's not a chance you'd mistake one for another, after a minute's close in.”

So Just Let Go

Heartbreak? All I know it was real.
Yes, some people really should leave, so you have enough space for the better one. Maybe in time you don't want anything else, you don't want anyone else, you just want him/her and full stop. It's naivety you can deny. Even I.. I've been the phase of not wanting to let go. Then I made a thought, it was just too selfish to keep people for your own happiness when even you yourself could not see the future anymore. Memories, no matter how pretty they were, are sort of past. You can't move forward if you keep looking back. I did and I feel a bit regret of it. I lost my time because of staying too long, waiting too long, going nowhere, being brought and driven by memories. That's pathetic. And it's been hard for me to release how I felt back then. I know that unease will stay, but time almost can cure every pain. You just need to know and keep your chin up. Damn those heartbreakers, just move on. Life won't wait. No time could rewind. Forgive and forget. Eventually, you'll find out what God bigger plan is.

Because We're Talking About Bad Boys

taken from here

I haven't found one. Or maybe I have but I did not really pay attention to them. They are attractive. Bad boys are attractive. But, I never really fall for them. I'm not gonna throw any judgments, about boys, about things they do, about how they see and treat the girls. That would be pretty unfair to them.
Bad is conditional. Bad boys are even more conditional. Smoking doesn't patch them a-bad-boy-label. Neither drunken nor driving madly.
How about womanizing?
How about offering girls some hopes then walking away?
Those are bad. But girls, indeed, love to enjoy their games. Girls eventually have already known what the future might talk upon the relationship between them, it may turn to relationshit but somehow.. They don't give a damn. Keep going. Broken-hearted. Crying.
It's important to see around, listen to their sayings, yes, it can be wrong, but it also can be correct. You know your heart always can feel the best from the very first time.
Anyway, for me personally, I'd love to join their games. But not in a serious way. Crime should be paid with crime. Yes?

I Know I've Changed

What makes life seem force us to change? There ain't no force. It's just us. Here. Walking through the days with opened eyes so we simply can see how we can survive. Else, how we can overcome unfortunate things and transform them as some additions to the infinite luck we earn. We are in charge of our own crisis. So better don't make our own crisis. Life seems complicated cause we insist on making that complicated, yes?
How would you see me now?
I'm practically not somebody who I used to be. I don't wear heels as often as I did. Neither make up. I don't visit Starbucks. I save my money for books I want the most. It feels bad for me to splurge on clothes. I spend my weekend with my family. I don't crave for Frozen Yogurt.

And this far, I'm happy with it.
How lack of blue mascara doesn't bother me and my mood plus how I can be true to people I face everyday.

I know I've changed.
For whatever it takes, I grab all of the changes as bless. None of them should be cursed of. I still go for my favourite Caramel Frappucino, my favourite patty, and clothes. But my action towards them are completely different. Enjoying them as the sparkling things only, not the main ones I have to get and be delighted of.

I know I've changed.
The way I react to problems. How I encounter them with more thoughts. How it's easier for me to make good decision. And to be emotional sometimes. Emotionally well-mannered, for sure.

Changes are good. Do you change? Ask yourself and smile for it.
Believe me, you need them.

Comeback?

It's been a while since I really wrote here. Not a while since I stopped longing for thing-or-someone who doesn't worth longing for. A while since I fell in love with my boyfriend and he keeps me to fall in love with him everyday, every single day. A while since I got accepted in the university I want, majoring the super-cool-hell-yeah Industrial Engineering. A while since I told you what happened in my days. They say, you made a journal to find out wrong things in your days. How can I make one when everything feels so blissful then?
So here I am, starting to blog, trying to back on track, fulfil you with my thoughts, unstoppable thoughts, my infinite imagination, and daily chores. I know this may sound silly to you, but I miss typing on my laptop without running out of ideas.
Oh well, how inspired I am.
Microblogging is one of thousand reasons why I rarely try to write. Some idea pops out everytime and when I twit, it will just go away, without any developments. I got plenty of time, nothing to do. Yeahs, unproductively happy, but something wears me out. I want to maintain this blog like I used to. Writing good things, bad things, curses, love stories, quotes, reviews, artworks, etc.
Let me back back back on this.
So yesterday, I just finished some of college thingy like looking for kost and paying the fee.
Thumbs up, now I can enjoy my uh-oh long holiday... with writing. Hopefully. Wish me luck.

In The Name of Ego

What does it take to listen to your heart?
It can't be wrong. Ego and lust drive it to a crack. The conscience simply knows the good thing, but we somehow insist on doing the wrong thing. In the name of pride, coolness, or ego. We stick to a thing that ruins us slowly, we don't wanna hear the heart saying, we lie to what we feel, we run from reality, we choose the opposite. In the name of ego.

Remember when life is as simple as going to kindergarten and finding out that the one who loves us the most is mom? Life has never changed much.
Your mom still love you that much. We are the one who has changed.

You know what's right, carry on.

They Say

Different roles, different sides. Mistaken, mistaking. Oh yes, that's how we deal. I find some thing which may come up a bit weird yet funny.

They say, "karma rules".

What you pretty did is what you pretty get. Some people may curse on you like you ever curse on them. Some people may do bitching about your dress like you do. But don't ever forget, there are people who love you much, simply because you love them much.
Those who are gonna pay attention, because you are doing the same.

So, just choose what we wanna get. And do it to others.
Because they say, "karma rules".

Those Questions

What change do you want to see in your personal life - right now?
A better perspective. I want to see everything from both sides, wider. Having faith in myself and things I do. Quitting bothering some people who ever hurt me. I hardly can forget how people I believe talk behind my back, not in the front of my face. Getting rid of those thing from now on. I don't want to replay either restart. I just want to walk away, live life to the fullest, and make the best of myself.

What change do you want to see in your community & country by 2015?
A greener city, a lot of hazy public parks and less of shopping malls. How about turning those malls into shops along the clean road? Warmer people and less crime.

What sort of programmes or ideas of campaigns would you support?
Random-act-of-kindness campaign. Every single good deed will be paid.


taken from : Loft a Love Loaf, I'm kinda missing her thoughts and smart words.

Monsters

source

Look may whisper but true inner speaks louder
Yes, any princesses could be monsters.

Brand New Decade

aaamin :)

2009

Yeah, the end is near. I'm feeling glad and thankful for the 2009. Life's challenging. Recklessly fun and got me shone. Got me down. Got me wounded. Got me won.
I learnt how to stop sweating small stuffs.
How to be less-sarcastic.
How to find right thing upon others's opinions.
How to find love in a disfunction.
How to stand for things I fall for.
How to recognize people who are truly there for me.
How to be sure about my own mind.
How to love person unconditionally.
How to control the blast of emotion.
How to act humble.
How to back off from something that will hurt me.
How to face hopekiller.
How to deal with liars.
How to understand why people change.
How to take care of people's feelings.
How to see with heart.
How to open my eyes widely.
How to be thankful. How to love. How to live high.

No regret at all. Amongst the tears and pain I felt. Amongst the unfairness of life cycle. Amongst the gossips that sprayed. I can say, who cares?
We are all living, learning. I believe making mistakes is not a mistake.

Still, my favourite line : I thank God for those who leave and those who stay. God knows what's best for all.

Bye 2009

It's Mine

I don't wanna be anyone else. I don't follow anyone's dream.
I'm on my own.
Doing things I want to do, picking the old forgotten dreams, following my soul calling.
I'm wearing my own skin. It's not a mask or fake plastic that my dad asked me to wear.
I'm with my own hair. It's not a wig my grandma asked me to use.
I'm standing within my own dream inside.

It's a fact; I do not own an extraordinary dream.
It's a fckin mainstream. but why worry? If it's a thing I'm looking forward to being.
Maybe we go through the same path, in the end we all have our own grips.
Ours is different. Yours is different. Mine is different.