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Tick-Tock

Ever see the clock and feel the pain? I have.

Somewhat you saw the clock ticking then suddenly realize what you'd wasted.
What God had given to you, but you
took the time for granted; loving someone who never loved you......that much like you thought.

You thought they would give you all spirits they had, all dreams to share.
You thought they loved you for no reasons, you thought they stood beside you through fire.
You might listen to the sweetest words, the most real promises.
You would think about the brightest future, you claimed it was you guys' happiness.

No, you just got it wrong.

In fact, what you can see in the future, they will fight for their own happiness. They will leave you for their own mighty dreams, abandon you for their so called perfect life, and make you believe about what they call moving on.

Do you know moving on means deleting in a smooth way of words-choosing?

then you see how fool you were.

and the last thing you hope is their appearances with innocent smile, asking your apology for moving on. Believe me, the apology can fix nothing yet relieving themselves from their own guilts.

They've told you lies for numbers, so why should you believe and forgive?

Somehow Crap Happened

Last Friday started the things. I mean, all sorrow and pain I no longer feel today.

Is it forgiving? No, I don't do forgiving too much. I ain't an angel.
I wasn't born to be hypocrite either. So once I hate, I won't treat you nice and like liking.
For sure.

I just want to keep my life cycling. Life won't wait for my pain. Pain that you carved.

I'm feeling better than I've ever been, the post broken-hearted? yuck----------I wasn't in that phase and so am I now.
Things are great. Literally. Thank God.I've seen good things. I've known better, and the most important is I'm using my brain more than using my heart.

So I turn to be more logical. This is a good news. I'm gonna return here soon with spices and sweets of days.

P.S. Gotta post lots of photos! I promise you, xoxo.

Aftrnn

I'm definitely a morning person, yet a midnight person either. Sounds weird? LOL. It's common plus okay for me to sleep at 2am and wake up at 6 am in the morning. I won't feel dizzy or tired, even a bit. I got my full spirit in the morning and I got the best time at night.

But I do despise afternoon. I grow up with this feeling. How the sunny weather strikes your skin and everything feels so quiet, it's sickening.

You see no one but your maid in your home, you see no one but the old ice cream man with his bycicle; no one buys that.
Afternoon pushes me to an indefinite loneliness.

Afternoon never comforts me. I never enjoy being in the afternoon with no one to talk to.

The worst side of afternoon is...
it opens my past.
Several years a go when I always go home in the afternoon. Under the sun, with no rain. Walking through the couple I adore so without realizing I'd be the one beside him and now he's with anyone else. Sigh, I'm not that melancholy to cry or that bitchy to hate them.
This is so aggravatingly weird. It's been a year and I've just suddenly realised the part of day I spent with him much was..
in the afternoon.

Oh God I'm turning to something cheesy.

Don't remind me, I know I gotta get over and get used to that. This is a fucking pain with fact I can do nothing but letting it be.

Someone told me it had been over.
Yes, it was.
Why the pain still remains?
Don't ask, I don't even know what the answer.

Even worse mid tests brought a lot of memories. Couple years have gone and I am injured.
Oh God, this is hard, really.
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I was Dying

Errr---- not literally of course. I just don't know how it could be described with other words but dying. I mean, the sudden shiver and the pain inside...... damned.
Is that what you guys call broken-hearted?

I shouldn't be broken-hearted. He didn't break my heart. I broke my own heart, chose to die slightly, and decided to let myself live a lie.


All I know now my tears are out of date, expired. I don't wanna cry. I smile.

Anesthetic

"Yesss they say God take something from us so we have room for the better one :--) stay cool rinn, you're awesome".

You know who you are, I love those words above. Relieving.

By the way, God's just fulfilled my pray.... to take care of him.

Have a nice day.
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