We Just Don't Know

We just don't know why school is still going out there.
I just don't know where you are now.............................. geez

L------------

Have you ever felt this kind of feeling?

Yeah, I know you have.
Everyone has.
Love is such an irresistible thing.
You might not ask for it, but once it comes to you, you'll never be able to give up on it.

And It'll be like.....................
many stars upon your head.
And you can't sleep at all, because for the first time in your life, finally the real life become more fantastic than the dream itself.

But it is not always in that way, not that smooth, and often rough.
The heart's problem. You may give up, but you're in love.



Will you do whatever it takes to keep what you love?

I'm the kind who will. But not everyone does the same thing.
Some choose letting go, even though they're so in romance and what they get after letting go just suffering. Setting someone free won't be the best way.
Love's kinda possessive, somehow. and how it is going, definitely based on human's instinct.

Break up may be the worst thing.
May be the most horrible thing.

It won't be easy for everyone in this entire world. Arranging your feeling again, making it up again, preparing it for being alive alone (without the ex anymore), and the thing I hate the most is forgetting.

How people nowadays are easily changing, forgetting, and hurting.

I wish I could do those 3 things above, but I can not and I will not.

I won't hurt nor even change for the revenge sake, and forgetting,
I'll exactly not do it.

What we have today is only memory.
When we lose it, does not mean that you're strong enough to get back into life.
When we lose it, it shows us how weak we are. It shows us how we can not stay alive with the memory inside our lives. We make the memory remains, but we don't make it as something that burdens us.


Anyway, love is a gift. You'll never know who you will fall for.

Opportunity

Once it knocks and you don't give the answer,
It will never approach you again.

My School and A Boy Out There

Tomorrow will be a school day, again.
Geez, why is it schooling when the pupils have already fed up with those stuffs called lesson?
My school has it, what differs it with other school is no ended-soon day. Even if it's the first day.
Yeah, the rumor said tomorrow would be a first the day of the second semester.

How could they? It's not even New Year's Eve yet.

My school depresses me sometimes. or......... hmmm, often.
The tasks and so on and so on, let me forget about how wonderful this world is. :'(
and make time moves faster and faster each day.

It would take like about two or three pages if wrote all hell things about my school.
But by the way, deep inside me I love going to it. :P


and A Boy Out There.
Who is he?
Someone. Hehe
I don't have many words too describe him and I don't have any senses to share about him with you guys. All I need is bravery.



Gosh, I hate to say this but.....................
Cheers for the school day!

xoxo

Disguise

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside?
You will never measure up,
To those people, you must be strong
Can't show them that you're weak

Have you ever told someone something that's far from the truth?
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I'm okay
I really am nowJust needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face in the mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess
You feel far from good
Need to hide, cause they'd never understand

Have you ever had this wish, of being somewhere else?
To let go of your disguise
All your worries too
From that moment, that you see things clear

I'm okay
I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know, what's yet to come

Are you waiting for the day when your pain will disappear?
When you know that's not true
what they say about you?
Couldn't care less bout the things surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from my wall

I'm okay
I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know, what's yet to come..........

(Disguise - Lene Marlin)






This song throbs me a lot,



it feels so sad when you have to disguise. Making a smile when inside you're just crying.
Set a happy & lively face but the truth you're just like a zombie. No spirit at all.
Put the best stuffs on you to make you feel more secure, after all those stuffs don't work.
You can not show them you're weak because you are supposed to be strong.
You can not show how hurt you are and pretend everything's alright.
Tell 'em you're happy because if you told the truth, they'd never understand.
You put a smiley face, lively voice, funny jokes, and clearly laughters, but those all are only your disguise.


Disguise?
For me, it's the only way to make you look alive,
the only way to make you look still sane,
the only way to cover the truth
that deep down inside your soul is tortured
and already insane......


One thing last, I'm still waiting for the day when my pain will disappear.

Katy Perry Rocksss!

She's just oh so cute! and her songs are perfectly throbbing. :P

How To Be Britney Spears

Hey, don't get a bad thought just because of the title. I just admire her a lot nowadays and I wanna write about her a little bit.
Back to few years ago,
She was a great superstar, superb well-known for sure, and absolutely majestic.
Pretty, young, rich, and famous. She could get anything she wanted. Justin Timberlake was beside her. and maybe she could ask anything more............

but life always got its own cycle.

when her film was not be able to break the market, she broke up with Justin, she married with a totally wrong guy for only a day, then divorced, in next to no time she married with K-Fed, had a baby, and then her album-blackout-was not really cool like her previous albums.

How was it for her?

She was depressed for sure. Three times tried to commit suicide, had a gold-digger husband, became out of place, and although she was still loaded, her life was just too sucks.


Really, if I were her, I could not deal with those solemn problems.
Geez, how would you feel if you were on the top then you fell?
How would you feel if you were on heaven then God kick you to the hell?

I was seeking for a role model which can show me how to stay alive after got many kicks and stabs, and there she is. The new Britney Spears.
She's coming back into her world, trying to get back what she had lost for those few years, and so damn beautiful.

Have you watched her newest video, "Circus"? For god sake, she's really coming back.







and some say if her hair is blonde, that means she's happy.

She is an example,
one of many people who are succeeded dealing with their lives.




If those Britney's problems happened to you,
would you be alive again like she just did?