2009

Yeah, the end is near. I'm feeling glad and thankful for the 2009. Life's challenging. Recklessly fun and got me shone. Got me down. Got me wounded. Got me won.
I learnt how to stop sweating small stuffs.
How to be less-sarcastic.
How to find right thing upon others's opinions.
How to find love in a disfunction.
How to stand for things I fall for.
How to recognize people who are truly there for me.
How to be sure about my own mind.
How to love person unconditionally.
How to control the blast of emotion.
How to act humble.
How to back off from something that will hurt me.
How to face hopekiller.
How to deal with liars.
How to understand why people change.
How to take care of people's feelings.
How to see with heart.
How to open my eyes widely.
How to be thankful. How to love. How to live high.

No regret at all. Amongst the tears and pain I felt. Amongst the unfairness of life cycle. Amongst the gossips that sprayed. I can say, who cares?
We are all living, learning. I believe making mistakes is not a mistake.

Still, my favourite line : I thank God for those who leave and those who stay. God knows what's best for all.

Bye 2009

I'm not fond of running away.
Smothered by your scent.
Simply sickening when you're not around.
I used to think that longing didn't exist.
I guess, I was all wrong.

Do You Know L Stands for Love? Not for...

Sat, 26th Dec 2009 ----- Ardelia's crib, mon mademoiselles.

Such a Thing Called L

Another chance can figure who you were out. It will wake you up from the hideous reality you've ever had. Elusively thrilling, yet delicating for having the truth of how evil bitch you were or what lovely thing you did back then.

Once you got, you might not forget. You might not regret either. At least you would know how it felt to be cool and stood for things which were legally..

Not right.
Or maybe fully right.
Or maybe between them.

You would realise how you were so lunatic back then. Brainless, selfish. Or either you would find you were so innocent, sincere, yet jaded. Well, once again, not that you regretted it, just somehow getting the idea how people could be so naïve for a thing called love was outrageously amazing.
You might find it crazy. But yes, it was and it is. Never change.

Love's gonna take you anywhere.
It's gonna bring you any roles.

Kind-hearted princess?
Smarty-pants?
Love-beggar?
Desperate housewife?
Envious bitch?
Womanizer?
Prince Charming?
Jerk?
You choose.
Unlimited, infinite, no line.
Driving you recklessly, wherever you wanted to go.
Whoever you wanted to be.
So, dare to be mean? I guess all of you will do.
This game is pretty dangerous.
Fasten your seatbelt.

Everybody's in.
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"Saya Gak Melihat Cinta Ini Ada Ujungnya" (Revised)

Sebaris kalimat kesayangan saya dari novel favorit, Perahu Kertas.
Satu-satunya novel yang saya babat habis sejak buka halaman pertama. Isinya.....wow.
Wow.
Saya speechless.

Hmm.
Saya juga gak melihat cinta ini ada ujungnya.

I am a Muscular Cheerleader with a Hot Boyfriend and I Kicked Spongebob Squarepants because I'm SEXY Like That

You've opened it!
You will have bad luck for four weeks!
But, if you re-post this,
You will get kissed by your crush on Friday!
Re post as "I am a ...."

What color of shirt are you wearing?
Red: Silly.
Brown: Cute.
Green: Gorgeous.
Blue: Sexy.
White: Muscular.
Aqua: Freaky.
Yellow: Innocent.
Purple: Little TOO happy.
Black/don't remember: EMO.
Orange: Funny.
Gray: Dumb.
Pink: Preppy.
Light pink: Sweaty.
Multicolored: Tree- hugging.
Other: Hot.
None: Sexy beast.

What kind of pants are you wearing?
Skirt/Skort: llama.
Corduroy: Cage fighter.
Skinny jeans: Pothead.
Shorts: Cheerleader.
Ripped Jeans: Skater.
Cammo: Hillbilly.
Jean short shorts: Whore.
Jeans: Prep.
Cargo: Clown.
Sweats/basketball shorts: Gangster.
Booty shorts: Bum.
Pajama Pants: Slut.
Checkered: Taco lover.
Nothing: Mother banger.

What is your NATURAL hair color?
Dark brown: With a hot boyfriend/ girlfriend.
Auburn: With a broken heart.
Red: With a hot butt.
Black: With a nice smile.
Dirty blond: With a hot body.
Brown: With beautiful eyes.
Blond: That flirts too much.
Strawberry blond: That is to much to handle.
Light brown: With amazing eyes.

You opened it, now you have to complete it.
Or something very bad will happen to your loved one.
READY SET GO!!
Pick The Month You Were Born In:
1. (jan) - I ran over.
2. (Feb) - I kicked.
3. (Mar)- I slapped.
4. (Apr) - I injured.
5. (May) - I ran shirtless with.
6. (June) - I modeled with.
7. (July) - I smoked with.
8. (Aug) - I ran with.
9. (Sept) - I kissed.
10. (Oct) - I robbed.
11. (Nov) - I hate.
12. (Dec) - I punched.

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1. Barack Obama.
2. Lil Wayne.
3. Michael Jackson.
4. Zac efron.
5. Nick Jonas.
6. Paris Hilton.
7. Madonna.
8. Miley Cyrus.
9. Lady Gaga.
10. Elmo.
11. Taylor Swift.
12. Spongebob Squarepants.
13. Soulja Boy.
14. Lil' Mama.
15. Katy Perry.
16. Britney Spears.
17. Ryan Sheckler.
18. Big Foot.
19. Randy Jackson.
20. Mariah Carey.
21. Colby O'donis.
22. The Black Eyed Peas.
23. Simon Cowell.
24. Flava Flav.
25. Chris Brown.
26. The Cookie Monster.
27. Akon.
28. Barney the Dinosaur.
29. Paris Hilton.
30. Ronald McDonald.
31. Jenifer Green wood.

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
None: Because I'm SEXY like that.
Black: Because I love weed.
Pink: Because I'm crazy like that.
Turquoise: ​Because I like to snort cocaine.
Brown: Because gummy bears raped me.
Polka Dots: Because I'm a tranny.
Purple: Because I'm gay.
Grey: Because I like shoelaces.
Yellow: Because I'm retarded.
Green: Because I'm a pimp.
Orange: Because I'm a mental retard.
Red: Because I love sex.
Blue: Because I have AMAZING boobs.
Tye dye: Because I'm a fucking scuba diver.
Graphic: Because that LOSER stole my taco.
Coral: Because a dolphin took my baby.
White: Because i have a great body.
Neony: That's just how I roll.

oh well, you are all tagged here. just do it guys.

It's Mine

I don't wanna be anyone else. I don't follow anyone's dream.
I'm on my own.
Doing things I want to do, picking the old forgotten dreams, following my soul calling.
I'm wearing my own skin. It's not a mask or fake plastic that my dad asked me to wear.
I'm with my own hair. It's not a wig my grandma asked me to use.
I'm standing within my own dream inside.

It's a fact; I do not own an extraordinary dream.
It's a fckin mainstream. but why worry? If it's a thing I'm looking forward to being.
Maybe we go through the same path, in the end we all have our own grips.
Ours is different. Yours is different. Mine is different.

Twists

Simply love, simply hate
words are sharp, don't take back
what you did, who you are
hypocrite, just go far.

if you smile, I deny
there's a thing, justify
I don't try to imply
it's a fact, please don't cry.

I Call It Love

It's when you decide to do something you previously loathe just to make them happy,
but yes,
you go with your all heart, then........
at last, you can feel happy for doing it.


I'm trying to be what you want me to be. I'm sure you know what's best. I love you.

The Art of Gossiping

I'm not an expert of gossiping. I'm not a quite well-informed one. LOL
I'm just a listener, watcher, or whatever you might call people who follow without adding more spices on it. Everyone loves to listen to gossip.
A qualified one, for sure.
I guess most of you have already known that gossip leads us to sin, but no one seems to care either. LOL

Some of stuffs you should re-check before stating yourself as a gossip expert :

First of all, you gotta be able to differ gossip from fact. Fact is something that intertwines with proof, while gossip.......... only heaven knows. and the people you talk about, for sure.
Don't ever call something which is true as gossip. You just got it wrong.
Second, gossip is not same as talking shit. The purpose of gossip is spreading news, while talking shit..... you wanna scratch the people by your words.
And the last, don't ever do gossiping just to grab attention. What a shame.
Only social climber does that.

So, are you a good gossip expert?

Love always,
FPL

Get Lost

Swimming through the lunacy
They keep telling what I really should be

Reality is never easy

Waking up, I love waking up when dreaming feels tiring

Chasing?
Not yet.
I hardly have dropped my dream on the corner of the street.

Let me grip my own faith back. The faith of being... what I wanna be.
Again.
Lead me back there, please. I got lost.

Bold Anything True

I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part, I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My Appearance
I’m shorter than 5’5.
I wear makeup
I wear a piece of jewelery at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I’ve had braces.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
My ears are pierced.
I have small feet.

Relationships
I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships
I have a best friend.
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend. (its normal,love)
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences
I’ve been on a train.
I’ve left the state/province.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music
I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television
I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and like The OC.
I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like House.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and like CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life
I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red. (very light)
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve had purple/pink.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.
I’ve had/want dreadlocks.

School
I’ve thrown something at a teacher.
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed Math.
I’ve failed Science.
A teacher has called my parents.
I’ve been caught skipping.
I’ve been on the honor roll.
I’ve been on effort honor roll.

source
I.Can't.Sleep.Earlier.

What People Said to Me

"Apa salahnya jadi orang baik?"
"Manusia sering ngerasa kehilangan atas hal yg bukan punya dia"
"Kalo kamu dorong mobil, bukan gayanya yg perlu ditambah, tapi kurangin massanya"
"Nyamuk kalo ketabrak mobil mati apa engga?"
"Wah IQ kamu turun"
"Eh kata temen gue, suara lo bagus"
"Aku senang datang sama dia :)"
"ERIIIN, gue menang undian gitu nih"
"Rine, I just can't buy it..."
"Aduh, aku telat ke intennya! Kalimalang macet banget"
"Maaf ya Rin, gue malah jadi lulus transformasi"
"Tuhan tahu apa yang terbaik buat kita semua"
"Jauh-jauh dari bb duluuu"
"C'est la vie"
"Aku sayang kamu, sedikit"

can you guess who they are?

Stick with Them

05. Akira-my iPod nano 8GB :)
I bought him (yes, he is a boy) from a very good friend of mine. Guess what? he's green.
Yeay, I love you but you're green, A.

04. My bikers jacket
Okay, just call this love at first sight. I really dropped my heart when I first saw it, it sticks to my skin, fits perfectly. I just love it.

03. A purple mechanic pencil
I thought it would bring me luck. The fact : it brings me so much luck.

02. House key
Mom asks me to bring that everywhere, in case got home too late.

01. Ai- watashi no ai.

tell me things that stick with you :)

xoxo,
FPL

Heartbeat

In sync, complete. I love you.
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Flourescent

Read me a song you just wrote and
never let me move even an inch.
Take me to the brightest part of the supernova. Or maybe dancing between lightning

Got the flourescent. Sparkling. Glowing.
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Hit Me Baby One More Time

Bumping into the old side of me, falling in love again.
Be good. Hit the stage. Rock the town.
Bloop Bikers Jacket; Schoolympic Baller; Random Bangles, Istina's giveaway.

#1 Fact

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"People often feel like losing things which in fact are practically not theirs. Pathetic, way too pathetic."