Trembling Mind

I was facing a weird week, really.
causes :
a. Monday
gossip that sounded silly, lots of gossips.
b. Tuesday
studying bi-oh-logy and thinking about examination week
c. Wednesday
last day on my IPA H was cool, Kabul brought cheesecake because it's her birthdaay!
d. Thursday
examination day 1, mathematics is always rockssss!
e. Friday
freaky, car accident, forgot to eat whole day and end up with muntah-muntah 3 times within an hour (totally gross)
f. Saturday
uploading photos and failed because of the stupidity of Mozilla Firefox, chatting w/ Alfi talking about limited edition guy, and still afraid of food
and I'm gonna study Chemistry, read Biology (reproduction), and make resume of all Physics formulas.

wish me luck, have a nice weekend dear! :)

Top 5 Things in My Mind

05. Battery of My Notebook
Oh God, I want to bring my notebook wherever I want, and I've told my dad but he didn't pay attention so much -_____________- or should I ask for a new one? yes that Vaio or a Macbook.
04. Time Management
I've rescheduled my life lately, and it feels better now.
03. Someone Who's Unseen Nowadays
guess who, hahaha
02. Clothes
I got so many new clothes, but I don't even wear one of them. Crap.
01. Mathematics Examination
yes, no wonder, Maths always takes the biggest space on my mind when it drives to a test.

I Have Been Thinking Lately

Since my notebook's battery was out of order and it means I can not bring my notebook wherever I want cause I-need-electric-supply thing, and since the A**** center hasn't produced notebooks like mine anymore and since they also didn't have the battery anymore and since my dad had looked for its battery everywhere and since my dad found it, but it had to be ordered and took about a week to get it, and since my dad hasn't ordered it until now (huhuhu)
I will ask this for exchange.


VAIO CS26G/C, thank you.

It's All About Gambling and I'm The Winner

Call him Remy LeBeau, or the notorious one, Gambit.
The gambling master and....................






and my future boyfriend? HAHAHAHAHA. just wondering.
btw, Taylor Kitsch starred him well and he's oh so cool.
just like my real Gambit. <3

A Pray for Upcoming Examination

God, I won't ask much. Please, make us serious and focused.
Let us pass every exams and keep me away from remedial(s).
Let us do the best for the examination and give us courage to do those.
Aaaamin.

Top 10 Ways To Boost Your Mood

10. Sign in your WLM
sometimes we feel so down simply because we think we got no one to share. Grab your pc or laptop or bb and then just sign in!
(look who're online, if there are some of good people keep there, but if you see one of your enemies or maybe an annoying fans, just sign out then).

09. Get A Magazine
maybe NYLON can help, but if you got no longer pocket money, just buy a local magazine which contains many good tips and issues.
(never buy a magazine just because of the astrological things, you're wasting your money then. better to borrow your folks'. LOL).

08. Twit your favourite front man
please, it's 2009 and owning a Twitter acc is exactly a must. follow your favourite front man/guitarist/bassist/vocalist/drummer and then twit him!
(don't be a stalker, by the way)

07. BLOGWALKING
you'll have no ideas, how this one is so much fun
(esp. for bloggers, like me)

06. Wall your ex
having a good relationship with someone who ever knows you well and cares about you is really okay.
(if he's nice enough and not a big crap-slash-womanizer-slash-liar)

05. Eat Crispy Roll
go to the nearest Sushi Tei, ordered this and you'll be fine
(make sure you're not on a diet program :P)

04. Post something
type down all your problems and sadness and post it!
(don't be too a melodramatic, unless you want everyone stop following your blog)

03. Read motivational books
The Secret by Rhonda Byrne, 100 Ways to Motivate Yourself by Steve Chandler and many more.. can magically boost your confidence and mood. Yes, changing how do you think will change everything.
(make sure you got time to finish the book)

02. Studying
Life needs balancing, and all play no work makes us dull people. go grab your physics/mathematics/chemistry/biology textbook. our brains need some tasks, unless you want it to work badly and becoming a forgetful one.
(but if you think this one won't work, don't force it. getting bad day because of studying is really uncool, though :P)

01. Praying
Ask Him, God knows what the best for us.

AAAMIN

driving license, straight A(s), medical studies, Jazz Performance, notorious blog (total LOL), and meet my knight charming (definitely not a prince charming with blinky stuffs, I need a knight to be with and for sure help me dealing with Physics and Maths and Chemistry).

Yellow

It is caused by Tap Tap Coldplay.
yeah, you should try that game for sure.

and now, I'm infected by Yellow - Coldplay, because of gaming that song over and over again.
simply i love this part :

Look at the star, look how they shine for you.

I put that first line on my personal message at WLM and then someone greeted me :
fyi Rin, Stars shine for everyone, not for someone.

hahahahaha, bener sih. tapi ini kan lirik lagu.............. -____-

"Losers?
those who are afraid of falling."

Always Better Than You Do

I do everything better than you do.

If you're over me, I'm already over you.
If you got no regret leaving me, I'm happier without you.
If you miss me, for sure I miss you like hell.
If you bring me bear, I bring you star.
If you hate me, I loathe you before.
If you love me, I love you too.

LOOKLET

crazily cool! join here
meet me as : maryjaneoh

Chictopia

unbranded black leggings/men white tops/thrifted gray vest/random bangles/custom made platforms

click here, join, and be my friends. :D

Broken Heart

Lovers, break up.
Common thing but doesn't feel like that common, too.
Normal thing but doesn't seem so normal, too.
Everyone will feel the same way, either he/she is a poor guy or a rich man.
either he/she is lovely, or hate-able.
Brokenhearted is terribly sucks. Hurting, in other words, killing.

There's no way to fix a broken heart. What done can't be undone.
Even if you got the world's greatest glue, you can't patch it into the previous shape.
A broken heart changes everything, like what love does.
Changing how you see, how you feel, how you think.

Once I was brokenhearted.
It hurt, it tried to kill me, but I'm still alive.
Remember, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

In the end, everyone's moving in their own ways.
Broken heart is simply a phase that everyone should go through.

I spontaneously write this post.
Remembering I'm a single one, yet my surroundings are happily taken.
I don't feel bad. Cause at least, I've recovered from all hurts and I'm feeling okay.
Yes, all people who were brokenhearted, don't grief.
Cause someday, or maybe tomorrow, there'll be a time when you say
"brokenhearted is so last year".

Maybe I Should Take Fashion Seriously

pictures taken from : Google Images and Lookbook.nu

inspiration seeking, maybe I should take fashion seriously.

What I Wore Last Saturday

Body&Soul shirt dress-unbranded leggings-Marie Claire Ombre flats-Gogirl 4th Anniversary bag-unbranded necklace-F21 Gold Bangles

ignore my pale-look-like-deads-face. guess, where was I?

I Wonder If I Had My Hair Cut Like These Girls

If only I had no chubby cheeks, I'd rather have pixie haaaairrr, simply cause Jakarta's getting hotterrr!

but the fact I have got, so maybe Gemma Ward's is more suitable for my face than above lol

Out of The City

Yes, I went to my grandma's house last Sunday and I've just arrived at home now, yuhuu! :D
Me and my parents headed for Purwokerto by trrrrain.
It was oh-so-exciteeed! Last time I went by train is when I was still 5 HAHAHA
How wonderful it was. Unfortunately, I didn't bring my DSLR so I couldn't capture how outrageous this countrrry out there.

Meeting my big family made me really aaalright! I left Jakarta with a very not nice face but returned with a big big big grin on my face.

How was your weekend, people? I miss you guys really. In my aunt's home (place where we stayed) they use dial-up connection so I guess I don't wanna make them pay more just because I want to post something. EHEHEHE

and for sure, I hate mobile blogging.

xoxo
F

50

I think this is really interesting, got it from Iriph's.

This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS... Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it! Re-post it for all of your friends.


1. Beer: heineken
2. Food: rendang
3. Relationship: ex
4. Crush: drummer
5. Power Rangers: pink
6. Life: hell yeah awesome
7. The President: Barrack Obama
8. Yummy: slurp
9. Car: bentley
10. Movie: wolverine
11. Halloween: trick or treat
12. Sex: the sims
13. Religion: islam
14. Hate: envy
15. Fear: insecure
16. Marriage: love
17. Blondes: girls
18. Slippers: crocs
19. Shoes: boots
20. Asians: chinese?
21. Pastime: junior high
22. One night stand: lust
23. My cell phone: where are you?
24. Smoke: smell bad
25. Fantasy: fairy godmother
27. High school Life: bubbly
28. Pyjamas: bananas in pajamas
29. Stars: sirius
30. Center: spotlight
31. Alcohol: 70%
32. The word LOVE: you
33. Friends: thank God for them all
34. Money: I need it
35. Heartache: betrayed
36. Time: eternity
37. Divorce: celeb
38. Dogs: lassie
39. Undies: white?
40. Parents: freaky like me
41. Babies: boys
42. Ex: oh la la
43. Song: you and I both
44. Color: navy blue
45. Weddings: the happiest time ever
46. Pizza: Marzano
47. Hangout: XI IPA H(?)
48. Rest: sleeping
49. Goal : soccer
50. Inspiration: Alix, the cherry blossom girl

From #7

my oh-so-late-birthday-gift-but-by the way-I heart the bear.
thanks, F.

Tom Says : (2)

As my eyes throw a sight, there's a family walk on the other side of the street. The 40something dad and well-groomed yet low profile mom are holding their sons' hand. Yes, the parents own two sons. An older one is really tall for his age, I bet he's still 8 years old and the other is cute, I think he's a first-grader. Is that a perfect picture of a family? I don't know. After all, I always own the finest stuff, but not for a family thingy.............
I stop wondering and get into my car. Staring that family stuff kills me. I start the engine and drive fast. I have nowhere to go right now, but I really want to drive. I love my car so badly, the one which sticks with me time to time and has no one but me. I like to being had.,

I stop for a while at the traffic light.
I hardly ever stop my car for it, my last name always can be an excuse for everything.

Tom Says :

I'm roaming the street, the dark one though. I parked my Cherokee on the corner of the crossroad. My name is Tom, but all people out there called me Tommy. Don't ever ask my last name.
I hate it. Simply hate it.

I miss some fresh air, life's sucks. The divorced parents was a nightmare, yet a cruel single parent dad make it worse now with his plan to get married (again). So I left home a week a go and now staying in my best friend house, Wesley Harold. He's been my friend since I was 3. Our parents are good friends, but his parents still stick together and live happily ever after. mine? don't ask.

This is a really cold and stiff night, but my leather jacket makes me feel much better. Alone? yes I am. Today is Wesley's mom birthday. They wanted to celebrate it in one of the best Japanese restaurants in town. They insisted me on going, but I refused. I didn't want to disturb anyone's happiness. Even now, I'm drowning in my own pain.

Starting from my fancy life, I can get everything I want. The newest car, the coolest shoes, the most prestigious occasion to go, the most happening party, even the prettiest girl... getting them is just a piece of cake, but I never do it. Cause what makes it easy is my last name, which I said before, I hate it.


I look around, what a quiet night.

Breakfast at Tiffany's

this one can't be a dull. I want to read the book so bad, has anyone got it?

Commitment

If you ask what's the most difficult thing to do for me, the answer is this post's title.
I'm not fond of commitment, in any case.
Yes, I can truly abandon and forget all things that was my to-die-for....
Errr, this is annoying.
I really want to stick with something and stay stay staaaay focused.
This doesn't mean that I'm not faith.
I am faith, but I easily get bored of a regular thing, even I adore it so much before.
Hell yeah, now I'm on my own project.
Project to be a better person who can be committed...
Hope I can stick to that. :P

Express Post

I should go back to my math books, but hey I miss you, blogger.
This week is absurdly tiring, many tasks and even more exams. Thank God, so far I can do my best (except for Chemistry, I really don't wanna chat about that so called no-preparation-exam-because-the-teacher-didn't-tell-the day before).
and tomorrow I got Math, wish me luck, peeps!

guess what?
yesterday, I got a little bear from the number 7. well, that bear is my so-late-but-thank-you-i-like-it-so-much birthday present. yes, we exchanged the so-late-birthday-gift.
My birthday is in February and even worse his is in November. ehehehe
I'll post the photo later.
Gotta go back studyin'!

xoxo
F

Ni Yao De Ai

Whatsoever, I'm writing this post and listening to that song.
Remember? The original soundtrack of Meteor Garden I. Yes, the closing theme song one.
and I'm feeling.... fragile? rigid? about to cry?
No, I'm truly not.
I'm feeling loveless, empty, and fool.
and this song killed me.

I didn't know the meaning, but the melody stabbed my heart so I googled the translation
of this old, yet not lame song...


Although I often dream of you
I still have no idea
It's raining outside
Which day is it today?
But I don't know
Where you went

Although I have never
doubted you
I still feel uneasy
Who is your one and only?
Forgive me for doubting myself

I understand the love I want
Will spoil me
Like a little child
Who only knows how to be
bad in your arms
The love you want
Is not just reliance
Must be like a man
Even in bad weather
Leads a carefree life

Idk why, I'm in love with this song, again.................
and I need Meteor Garden series right now to relieve my heartless feeling.

Have a Nice Dream?

taken from weheartit.com

Let me tell you, it's been a real long time, dear.
I have never dreamed about you.
I've considered once, it won't come again. you won't come again.
but the fact,
....you came, you fitted into my soul, you took the whole, you stayed.
there you were,
in my dream. last night.

Clothes Tell

this test was taken from Serra's blog

What others see from your style

You probably live in your own little world and studiously avoid having to search for your own identity. You may feel that you are not loved, and being in your imaginary world is your way of coping with this. You get moody easily.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are kind and friendly. You are an uncomplicated person and enjoy exciting activities.

What others see from your belts

You are a kind of person who likes to hide your feelings. You may have a hot temper but tend to cover it with an outwardly calm and gentle demeanor. You are sensitive when it comes to love.

What others see from your shoes

You like to be the center of attention. You like to look good at all times and probably never leave the house without makeup on. Although you may be intelligent, you're also insecure about your looks. You care about others, and will always listen to what they have to say.

What others see from your earrings

You are a sweet and talkative person. You are sociable, energetic and interesting, and get easily bored by the same old things. You are always looking for adventure.

The last analysis

You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.


wow, they're all true (again). i'm getting scared, why all of this kinda test somehow shows the real me? hahahaha
try it here.

Saturday Morning

feeling really alright this morning, having a nice moment w/ my laptop and...
I got L-O-V-E!

SHOES again

Oh God, they seem so..... into me.
I'm gonna save my money for a pair.


fyi, one of my mates told me that he got a friend who sells all kinda Nike Dunk shoes. Hope there'll be a good news, then! :P

Rapuh

Manusia sering kali ..................


Merasa semua yang terlihat terasa salah. Gak ada sedikitpun yang bener. Beranggapan hidup gak adil. Mengkhayalkan semua yang buruk. Hancur dengan cepat, tapi juga sembuh dengan cepat.
Merasa orang di luar sana, semua penjahat. Yang di luar sana tega berbuat apa pun, lalu menari-nari di atas penderitaan orang lain. Iri atas kesenangan orang lain. Pasang wajah cemberut, menangis.
Berlari dari jati diri yang sebenarnya.
Mencari perlindungan......... semata karena rapuh.

Mudah hancur, mudah luka.