2009

Yeah, the end is near. I'm feeling glad and thankful for the 2009. Life's challenging. Recklessly fun and got me shone. Got me down. Got me wounded. Got me won.
I learnt how to stop sweating small stuffs.
How to be less-sarcastic.
How to find right thing upon others's opinions.
How to find love in a disfunction.
How to stand for things I fall for.
How to recognize people who are truly there for me.
How to be sure about my own mind.
How to love person unconditionally.
How to control the blast of emotion.
How to act humble.
How to back off from something that will hurt me.
How to face hopekiller.
How to deal with liars.
How to understand why people change.
How to take care of people's feelings.
How to see with heart.
How to open my eyes widely.
How to be thankful. How to love. How to live high.

No regret at all. Amongst the tears and pain I felt. Amongst the unfairness of life cycle. Amongst the gossips that sprayed. I can say, who cares?
We are all living, learning. I believe making mistakes is not a mistake.

Still, my favourite line : I thank God for those who leave and those who stay. God knows what's best for all.

Bye 2009

I'm not fond of running away.
Smothered by your scent.
Simply sickening when you're not around.
I used to think that longing didn't exist.
I guess, I was all wrong.

Do You Know L Stands for Love? Not for...

Sat, 26th Dec 2009 ----- Ardelia's crib, mon mademoiselles.

Such a Thing Called L

Another chance can figure who you were out. It will wake you up from the hideous reality you've ever had. Elusively thrilling, yet delicating for having the truth of how evil bitch you were or what lovely thing you did back then.

Once you got, you might not forget. You might not regret either. At least you would know how it felt to be cool and stood for things which were legally..

Not right.
Or maybe fully right.
Or maybe between them.

You would realise how you were so lunatic back then. Brainless, selfish. Or either you would find you were so innocent, sincere, yet jaded. Well, once again, not that you regretted it, just somehow getting the idea how people could be so naïve for a thing called love was outrageously amazing.
You might find it crazy. But yes, it was and it is. Never change.

Love's gonna take you anywhere.
It's gonna bring you any roles.

Kind-hearted princess?
Smarty-pants?
Love-beggar?
Desperate housewife?
Envious bitch?
Womanizer?
Prince Charming?
Jerk?
You choose.
Unlimited, infinite, no line.
Driving you recklessly, wherever you wanted to go.
Whoever you wanted to be.
So, dare to be mean? I guess all of you will do.
This game is pretty dangerous.
Fasten your seatbelt.

Everybody's in.
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"Saya Gak Melihat Cinta Ini Ada Ujungnya" (Revised)

Sebaris kalimat kesayangan saya dari novel favorit, Perahu Kertas.
Satu-satunya novel yang saya babat habis sejak buka halaman pertama. Isinya.....wow.
Wow.
Saya speechless.

Hmm.
Saya juga gak melihat cinta ini ada ujungnya.

I am a Muscular Cheerleader with a Hot Boyfriend and I Kicked Spongebob Squarepants because I'm SEXY Like That

You've opened it!
You will have bad luck for four weeks!
But, if you re-post this,
You will get kissed by your crush on Friday!
Re post as "I am a ...."

What color of shirt are you wearing?
Red: Silly.
Brown: Cute.
Green: Gorgeous.
Blue: Sexy.
White: Muscular.
Aqua: Freaky.
Yellow: Innocent.
Purple: Little TOO happy.
Black/don't remember: EMO.
Orange: Funny.
Gray: Dumb.
Pink: Preppy.
Light pink: Sweaty.
Multicolored: Tree- hugging.
Other: Hot.
None: Sexy beast.

What kind of pants are you wearing?
Skirt/Skort: llama.
Corduroy: Cage fighter.
Skinny jeans: Pothead.
Shorts: Cheerleader.
Ripped Jeans: Skater.
Cammo: Hillbilly.
Jean short shorts: Whore.
Jeans: Prep.
Cargo: Clown.
Sweats/basketball shorts: Gangster.
Booty shorts: Bum.
Pajama Pants: Slut.
Checkered: Taco lover.
Nothing: Mother banger.

What is your NATURAL hair color?
Dark brown: With a hot boyfriend/ girlfriend.
Auburn: With a broken heart.
Red: With a hot butt.
Black: With a nice smile.
Dirty blond: With a hot body.
Brown: With beautiful eyes.
Blond: That flirts too much.
Strawberry blond: That is to much to handle.
Light brown: With amazing eyes.

You opened it, now you have to complete it.
Or something very bad will happen to your loved one.
READY SET GO!!
Pick The Month You Were Born In:
1. (jan) - I ran over.
2. (Feb) - I kicked.
3. (Mar)- I slapped.
4. (Apr) - I injured.
5. (May) - I ran shirtless with.
6. (June) - I modeled with.
7. (July) - I smoked with.
8. (Aug) - I ran with.
9. (Sept) - I kissed.
10. (Oct) - I robbed.
11. (Nov) - I hate.
12. (Dec) - I punched.

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1. Barack Obama.
2. Lil Wayne.
3. Michael Jackson.
4. Zac efron.
5. Nick Jonas.
6. Paris Hilton.
7. Madonna.
8. Miley Cyrus.
9. Lady Gaga.
10. Elmo.
11. Taylor Swift.
12. Spongebob Squarepants.
13. Soulja Boy.
14. Lil' Mama.
15. Katy Perry.
16. Britney Spears.
17. Ryan Sheckler.
18. Big Foot.
19. Randy Jackson.
20. Mariah Carey.
21. Colby O'donis.
22. The Black Eyed Peas.
23. Simon Cowell.
24. Flava Flav.
25. Chris Brown.
26. The Cookie Monster.
27. Akon.
28. Barney the Dinosaur.
29. Paris Hilton.
30. Ronald McDonald.
31. Jenifer Green wood.

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
None: Because I'm SEXY like that.
Black: Because I love weed.
Pink: Because I'm crazy like that.
Turquoise: ​Because I like to snort cocaine.
Brown: Because gummy bears raped me.
Polka Dots: Because I'm a tranny.
Purple: Because I'm gay.
Grey: Because I like shoelaces.
Yellow: Because I'm retarded.
Green: Because I'm a pimp.
Orange: Because I'm a mental retard.
Red: Because I love sex.
Blue: Because I have AMAZING boobs.
Tye dye: Because I'm a fucking scuba diver.
Graphic: Because that LOSER stole my taco.
Coral: Because a dolphin took my baby.
White: Because i have a great body.
Neony: That's just how I roll.

oh well, you are all tagged here. just do it guys.

It's Mine

I don't wanna be anyone else. I don't follow anyone's dream.
I'm on my own.
Doing things I want to do, picking the old forgotten dreams, following my soul calling.
I'm wearing my own skin. It's not a mask or fake plastic that my dad asked me to wear.
I'm with my own hair. It's not a wig my grandma asked me to use.
I'm standing within my own dream inside.

It's a fact; I do not own an extraordinary dream.
It's a fckin mainstream. but why worry? If it's a thing I'm looking forward to being.
Maybe we go through the same path, in the end we all have our own grips.
Ours is different. Yours is different. Mine is different.

Twists

Simply love, simply hate
words are sharp, don't take back
what you did, who you are
hypocrite, just go far.

if you smile, I deny
there's a thing, justify
I don't try to imply
it's a fact, please don't cry.

I Call It Love

It's when you decide to do something you previously loathe just to make them happy,
but yes,
you go with your all heart, then........
at last, you can feel happy for doing it.


I'm trying to be what you want me to be. I'm sure you know what's best. I love you.

The Art of Gossiping

I'm not an expert of gossiping. I'm not a quite well-informed one. LOL
I'm just a listener, watcher, or whatever you might call people who follow without adding more spices on it. Everyone loves to listen to gossip.
A qualified one, for sure.
I guess most of you have already known that gossip leads us to sin, but no one seems to care either. LOL

Some of stuffs you should re-check before stating yourself as a gossip expert :

First of all, you gotta be able to differ gossip from fact. Fact is something that intertwines with proof, while gossip.......... only heaven knows. and the people you talk about, for sure.
Don't ever call something which is true as gossip. You just got it wrong.
Second, gossip is not same as talking shit. The purpose of gossip is spreading news, while talking shit..... you wanna scratch the people by your words.
And the last, don't ever do gossiping just to grab attention. What a shame.
Only social climber does that.

So, are you a good gossip expert?

Love always,
FPL

Get Lost

Swimming through the lunacy
They keep telling what I really should be

Reality is never easy

Waking up, I love waking up when dreaming feels tiring

Chasing?
Not yet.
I hardly have dropped my dream on the corner of the street.

Let me grip my own faith back. The faith of being... what I wanna be.
Again.
Lead me back there, please. I got lost.

Bold Anything True

I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part, I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My Appearance
I’m shorter than 5’5.
I wear makeup
I wear a piece of jewelery at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I’ve had braces.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
My ears are pierced.
I have small feet.

Relationships
I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships
I have a best friend.
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend. (its normal,love)
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences
I’ve been on a train.
I’ve left the state/province.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music
I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television
I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and like The OC.
I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like House.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and like CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life
I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red. (very light)
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve had purple/pink.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.
I’ve had/want dreadlocks.

School
I’ve thrown something at a teacher.
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed Math.
I’ve failed Science.
A teacher has called my parents.
I’ve been caught skipping.
I’ve been on the honor roll.
I’ve been on effort honor roll.

source
I.Can't.Sleep.Earlier.

What People Said to Me

"Apa salahnya jadi orang baik?"
"Manusia sering ngerasa kehilangan atas hal yg bukan punya dia"
"Kalo kamu dorong mobil, bukan gayanya yg perlu ditambah, tapi kurangin massanya"
"Nyamuk kalo ketabrak mobil mati apa engga?"
"Wah IQ kamu turun"
"Eh kata temen gue, suara lo bagus"
"Aku senang datang sama dia :)"
"ERIIIN, gue menang undian gitu nih"
"Rine, I just can't buy it..."
"Aduh, aku telat ke intennya! Kalimalang macet banget"
"Maaf ya Rin, gue malah jadi lulus transformasi"
"Tuhan tahu apa yang terbaik buat kita semua"
"Jauh-jauh dari bb duluuu"
"C'est la vie"
"Aku sayang kamu, sedikit"

can you guess who they are?

Stick with Them

05. Akira-my iPod nano 8GB :)
I bought him (yes, he is a boy) from a very good friend of mine. Guess what? he's green.
Yeay, I love you but you're green, A.

04. My bikers jacket
Okay, just call this love at first sight. I really dropped my heart when I first saw it, it sticks to my skin, fits perfectly. I just love it.

03. A purple mechanic pencil
I thought it would bring me luck. The fact : it brings me so much luck.

02. House key
Mom asks me to bring that everywhere, in case got home too late.

01. Ai- watashi no ai.

tell me things that stick with you :)

xoxo,
FPL

Heartbeat

In sync, complete. I love you.
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Flourescent

Read me a song you just wrote and
never let me move even an inch.
Take me to the brightest part of the supernova. Or maybe dancing between lightning

Got the flourescent. Sparkling. Glowing.
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Hit Me Baby One More Time

Bumping into the old side of me, falling in love again.
Be good. Hit the stage. Rock the town.
Bloop Bikers Jacket; Schoolympic Baller; Random Bangles, Istina's giveaway.

#1 Fact

source
"People often feel like losing things which in fact are practically not theirs. Pathetic, way too pathetic."

Ranting

Illusion. Collide?
No. Just crashing.
Emotion. Burst?
No. I got the box to keep it.
Motion. Random?
No. Moving my own way.

Distrust. Guess what?
............................... (fill in the blank)

Only Live Once

The rhythm of life is constantly changing. Taking care of dreams and passion is uneasy.
Okay, the schedule is full, no punctuation, just forwarding.
Remembering how people only live once somehow kicks me. Like the fact you can't rewind, neither undo. So, what you truly have is now.
Enjoy. Live High.

Boleh Berkata

Dunia boleh berkata,
tertawa,
bicara,
lupa,
dusta,
menghina,

Asalkan bahagia? Mengapa tidak.

Jakarta, 24 November 2009 - pelajaran bahasa Indonesia.
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Snaps

1. School is effing tiring, but thank God I am enjoying it.
2. It's funny to see how people change massively in a wink.
3. Days feel longer than they used to be.
4. Rain soothes my emotion.
5. Mom is a facebook addict.
6. while Dad is a Mafia War mania.
7. I'm facing many TOs.
8. and examinations.
9. I need your pray.
10. Last, I love loving.

Random 14th

source


"I thought I was crazy alone. Geez, you are twice even crazier".

About The Rain

Striking.
Streaking.
Drowning.
Calming.
Waking.

Thank God, it's raining.

The Academy is.. - About a Girl

Somewhat somehow this song tickles my ear, cool lyrics, and..... boys should be like this.
Really. Don't ever plead, don't ever beg, don't ever force.
Agree?


One song about a girl
Can't breathe when I'm around her
I wait here everyday
In case she'll scratch the surface
She'll never notice...

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

Last night, I knew what to say
But you weren't there to hear it
These lines, so well rehearsed
Tongue-tied and overloaded
You never notice

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

I'm not in love
This is not your song
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

To be loved, to be loved
What more could you ask for?
To be loved, to be loved
Everyone wants to be loved, to be loved
What more could you ask for?
To be loved, to be loved
Everyone

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

I'm not in love (To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)
This is not your song (To be loved, to be loved, everyone)
I'm not gonna waste these words (wants to be loved, to be loved)
About a girl

and this song reminds me to Nursanthy, she's the one who got this song and introduced it to me last January. It's been a long time. LOL

FPL

You Guess Which One is Yours

Write 15 things that you want to say to 15 different people, one for each. It could be a confession, an opinion, a thought, anything. However, you can't write something you already confessed or something you already said, it has to be something new. Tell them which is whom if you want to, but you don't have to.

In this post (in random order) : Hartini Soraya, Dina Stephanie Anastasya, Istina Dwi Prameswari, Alessandra Syukrika, Ardelia Apti, Cindera Gana, Dian Septina Ambarani, Nurul Fitria Lubis, Dimico Ardan Syah Rediga, Willy Hanugrah Gusti, Serra Annisa, Dwinta Astiarini, Ir. Bambang Triyogo B., Nursanthy Indah Hartini, Feruz Kausar.

1. "Ditch her off your life."
2. "You're my source of intelligence, Dad."
3. "You are pretty and smart. High-determined one. I wish you a great life then"
4. "My coolest motivator ever, Peter Pan."
5. "Your voice sounds like an angel, hope my name will be attached on your future album."
6. "Kindness, love. Thanks for being around me since the first year, Batter."
7. "Things may change, we stay the same, yes?"
8. "Remember when we both had a brother? It's been long time but we're still standing as friends. I'm gonna hit the TGA soon and buy those pens :)"
9. "I miss having fro-yo time with you. Watching movie with our moms."
10. "Mana gambar doraemonnya?"
11. "We're cool now, rite?"
12. "Turunin gw di shelter busway terdekat"
13. "We both love M. Shadows! Sharing things with you feels good, really. Thank you for listening much from me."
14. "Our routine at the first break relieve all things that burden us"
15. "Gentlemen never put ladies down, woots!"

which one?

Speaking upon The Troublemakers

No, I don't do judging. I do perceiving. You know, there are people out there need to be cured from their insecurities.
So they stop stumbling upon your life, quit craving for boys, and starving a bunch of attention from anyone else's boy either anyone else's ex.

Guess what I talk about? No you don't need to. This is my brain which types. Never try to understand what I mean. Feel it briefly.

There are people like that, have you ever realised?
One advice : just ditch them off yer life.

xxx FPL

Yeah, I am

Groundbreaking Thinkers are... charming, enthusiastic persons. They really bubble over with energy and like to take centre stage. They love variety both professionally and privately. Groundbreaking Thinkers tackle changes consistently with their optimism and firm belief in their own abilities; they are always on the look-out for improvement possibilities. Their excellent communication skills are of great advantage to them here. They approach the world with curiosity and openness and master new situations with a great deal of talent for improvising and with resourcefulness. Their spare time is taken up with a large number of hobbies; most Groundbreaking Thinkers like to travel in order to gather as many different impressions as possible. This personality type is unbeatable at discovering new possibilities.

In their work, Groundbreaking Thinkers highly rate challenges and diversified tasks. They cannot stand routine and too detailed work. They love to astound others with bold ideas for an original, new project and then leave it up to the others to implement them. Hierarchies, rules and regulations arouse their opposition and they love outsmarting the system. It is vital to them that they enjoy their work; if this is the case, they quickly become pure workaholics. Their creativity best takes effect when they work independently; but they are very good at motivating others and infecting them with their optimistic nature. Conceptual or advisory activities appeal especially to Groundbreaking Thinkers. It can happen that some people feel somewhat duped by their flexible, spontaneous nature.

Their sociability and enterprise ensure that Groundbreaking Thinkers always have a large circle of friends and acquaintances in which activity plays an important role. As they are mostly in a good mood, they are popular and very welcome guests. Grumbling and peevishness are unknown to them. However, they do tend to be a little erratic and unstable when it comes to obligations and this makes them appear to be unreliable to some. Groundbreaking Thinkers are very critical and demanding when it comes to picking a partner because they look for the ideal relationship and have a very concrete picture of this ideal relationship. Mutual aims in life are very important to them. They do not like compromising and would rather remain alone. For the partner, it is often a challenge to have a long-term relationship with a Groundbreaking Thinker. Groundbreaking Thinkers need a lot of space and diversity or otherwise they become bored and feel cramped. Types who are rather more traditionalistic often have problems with the willingness of Groundbreaking Thinkers to take risks and their often crazy, spontaneous actions. However, if one can summon up sufficient flexibility and tolerance for them, one will never be bored in their presence and will always have a loyal and faithful partner.

Adjectives which describe your type: extroverted, theoretical, logical, spontaneous, rational, innovative, intellectual, open, independent, curious, enterprising, analytical, clever, enthusiastic, venturesome, inventive, energetic, sociable, optimistic, non-conformist, creative, freedom-loving, charming, able to get enthusiastic, self-confident, communicative, capricious, inconsistent, outgoing

Above is oh so true. Yeah. I'm fascinated by the result. That's truly me.

check yours, click here. taken from Ucil's.

The Bakery Song

Some of my friends do like this song and I just got influenced by them.



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I wish you would have smiled in the bakery
or sat on a tatty seatee
at a mutual friends gathering

and the more you keep on looking
the more it's hard to take
love we're in stalemate
to never meet is surely where we're bound
there's one in every town
just there to grind you down

I wish I would have seen you in the post office
well maybe I did and I missed it
too busy with the mind on clever lines

why not the rounders pitch or the canteen
you're slacking love were have you been?
just have to go and wait until tonight

to give me the invite
don't worry it's alright

I wish I would have seen you down in the arcade
sippin' on a lemonade
in the paper cup and chewin on a straw

and I wish I would have seen you in the bakery
but if I'd seen you in the bakery
you probably wouldn't have seen me

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The acoustic version is perfect. Better listen by yourself :)

Craps Happen When...

Craps happen when...

8. You feel that the time flies so fast and you think you haven't done anything. Yet.
7. Meeting or even seeing your ex and his brand new girlfriend at your favourite shopping mall.
6. Having no time to just lay down in bed whole day.
5. Got no message at all in your blackberreeey.
4. Got no Ping at all in your blackberreeeey.
3. Being stalked by someone.
2. Being anxious because of hectic days.
1. Your braces hurt so bad.

Thank God for saving me from the things above,
except number one. Geez, this braces injure me.
Just tell me, what your version of craps-happen-when is. Post it!

xxx, FPL.

Oh, It's Shining

Hello, you need some darkness.
You need to get lost.
You need to be afraid.
You need to get insecure.

So you know how..

To feel and embrace the stars.
To be guided by their unlimited shine.
To be saved.
To feel blessed.
And to be alive.

-------------------------------------------dedicated to those who stand as my stars. thank you.

Currents

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to People
1. "Tell me this is not a dream."
2. "Don't ever ask me to pray for you and your girlfriend, that's naive."
3. "I have Jazz Class three times a week."
4. "Stop whining about your so called perfect life."
5. "Don't sweat small stuffs."
6. "You smell nice."
7. "I quit staying up late!"
8. "I park my car there."
9. "Alessa, itu cadaver gue wey!"
10. "Don't worry about this surgery. We're gonna make it awesome."

Nine things about myself
1. I believe in UFOs and xenology.
2. The true me is a geek. Exactly a geek.
3. Someday I want to be a famous freelance journalist.
4. I'm feeling guilty when I don't do my homework. Undeniable.
5. Idealist thoughts, yeah.
6. I'm not obsessed with my weight.
7. Jazz-Ballet cheers my day up.
8. There's something in low profile guy which always melts me down. I can't stand kindness.
9. I hate soda. Whatever.

Eight ways to win my heart
1. Kindness, gosh.
2. Smelling nice, smelling nice.
3. Realistic thoughts, future-oriented.
4. I'd love to hear you singing or playing guitar.
5. White chocolate would be perfect.
6. No roses, please. I tend to love balloons more
7. Click.
8. Love me just the way I am.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. Mathematics , Physics, Biology, Chemistry, Indonesian, English.
2. The major I'll take in 2010, woots.
3. Hm, you. Yeah, you.
4. Have a Little Faith - Mitch Albom!!!
5. La Magnifique Danse
6. XII IPA C
7. I HAVEN'T TAKEN THE ATHLETICS SCORE!!!!!!!!

Six things I do before I fall asleep
1. Isya Prayer
2. Being online til I fall asleep.
3. Preparing books for the next day.
4. Imagining something.
5. Reading good novels or studying.
6. Praying for a cute dream.

Five places I want to visit
1. Paris
2. London
3. Tokyo
4. The Angel's Falls
5. Barcelona

Four things I'm wearing right now
1. Abdi love Jabar tee
2. Navy shorts
3. My lovely black wayfarer glasses.
4. Undies, for sure!!!

Three bands that I listen too often (Currently)
1. Arctic Monkeys
2. The Kooks
3. Andra and The Backbone

Two things I want to do before I die
1. Bringing a real benefit for this whole world.
2. Living high with cool husband and lovely smart children.



One confession
1. I just wanna live, don't really care about the things that they say.

taken from Istina's Alaska? This way!

Good Morning

HiI'm here. Do you miss me?

Let Live

source

Currently listening :Cornerstone - Arctic Monkeys.

Tick-Tock

Ever see the clock and feel the pain? I have.

Somewhat you saw the clock ticking then suddenly realize what you'd wasted.
What God had given to you, but you
took the time for granted; loving someone who never loved you......that much like you thought.

You thought they would give you all spirits they had, all dreams to share.
You thought they loved you for no reasons, you thought they stood beside you through fire.
You might listen to the sweetest words, the most real promises.
You would think about the brightest future, you claimed it was you guys' happiness.

No, you just got it wrong.

In fact, what you can see in the future, they will fight for their own happiness. They will leave you for their own mighty dreams, abandon you for their so called perfect life, and make you believe about what they call moving on.

Do you know moving on means deleting in a smooth way of words-choosing?

then you see how fool you were.

and the last thing you hope is their appearances with innocent smile, asking your apology for moving on. Believe me, the apology can fix nothing yet relieving themselves from their own guilts.

They've told you lies for numbers, so why should you believe and forgive?

Somehow Crap Happened

Last Friday started the things. I mean, all sorrow and pain I no longer feel today.

Is it forgiving? No, I don't do forgiving too much. I ain't an angel.
I wasn't born to be hypocrite either. So once I hate, I won't treat you nice and like liking.
For sure.

I just want to keep my life cycling. Life won't wait for my pain. Pain that you carved.

I'm feeling better than I've ever been, the post broken-hearted? yuck----------I wasn't in that phase and so am I now.
Things are great. Literally. Thank God.I've seen good things. I've known better, and the most important is I'm using my brain more than using my heart.

So I turn to be more logical. This is a good news. I'm gonna return here soon with spices and sweets of days.

P.S. Gotta post lots of photos! I promise you, xoxo.

Aftrnn

I'm definitely a morning person, yet a midnight person either. Sounds weird? LOL. It's common plus okay for me to sleep at 2am and wake up at 6 am in the morning. I won't feel dizzy or tired, even a bit. I got my full spirit in the morning and I got the best time at night.

But I do despise afternoon. I grow up with this feeling. How the sunny weather strikes your skin and everything feels so quiet, it's sickening.

You see no one but your maid in your home, you see no one but the old ice cream man with his bycicle; no one buys that.
Afternoon pushes me to an indefinite loneliness.

Afternoon never comforts me. I never enjoy being in the afternoon with no one to talk to.

The worst side of afternoon is...
it opens my past.
Several years a go when I always go home in the afternoon. Under the sun, with no rain. Walking through the couple I adore so without realizing I'd be the one beside him and now he's with anyone else. Sigh, I'm not that melancholy to cry or that bitchy to hate them.
This is so aggravatingly weird. It's been a year and I've just suddenly realised the part of day I spent with him much was..
in the afternoon.

Oh God I'm turning to something cheesy.

Don't remind me, I know I gotta get over and get used to that. This is a fucking pain with fact I can do nothing but letting it be.

Someone told me it had been over.
Yes, it was.
Why the pain still remains?
Don't ask, I don't even know what the answer.

Even worse mid tests brought a lot of memories. Couple years have gone and I am injured.
Oh God, this is hard, really.
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I was Dying

Errr---- not literally of course. I just don't know how it could be described with other words but dying. I mean, the sudden shiver and the pain inside...... damned.
Is that what you guys call broken-hearted?

I shouldn't be broken-hearted. He didn't break my heart. I broke my own heart, chose to die slightly, and decided to let myself live a lie.


All I know now my tears are out of date, expired. I don't wanna cry. I smile.

Anesthetic

"Yesss they say God take something from us so we have room for the better one :--) stay cool rinn, you're awesome".

You know who you are, I love those words above. Relieving.

By the way, God's just fulfilled my pray.... to take care of him.

Have a nice day.
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Skinny

I woke up this morning with a weird thoughts of........
skinny.
Yeayea, you can't deny that no curves looks better.

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I'd love to be skinny, seriously :P
and my favourite real-thin supermodel is stil... Kate Moss. She's the
Okay, and Irina and... Twiggy! Twiggy was the icon. Or is she still the icon for extra-thin models?
Those with BMI under 18, those size zero-ers.
It's undeniable that the industry needs those them.

I'm sorry for being pretentiously shallow,
I'm so into waif look these days, that's why I wrote this.
No need to worry, inner beauty still does exist! ;)
xoxo, Ferinda

Cracks

you love me but you don't know who I am.
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It's Always about You

The murderers never know how it feels to be killed
and the victims know nothing about how to kill.

............and you will never know how they feel just like they will never know how you feel.
Oh I guess I did mistyped------
you will never understand them like they will never understand you.
See? They def don't care about how you feel. So why should you bother?

Don't ever deny, it's always about you. Oh well, okay...
It's all about you and your surroundings who make you happy,
who make you live. That's it.

All of this may sound selfish, but this's an effing truth.
You don't need those who's hurting. You don't need those who's abandoned you.

It's pretty much sickening to bet your happiness in someone's mouths.

Just do your role nicely, act well, live mighty.
All for your own's sake and those who love you.

Life may be unfair but no need to worry, God is fair.
What goes around pretty much comes around.

Love,
Ferinda

Learning

They say, "live life to the fullest".
So, whatever you do, do it whole-heartedly, in a serious way.

Never mind being in pain, if it's worth doing.
If you are hurt for good.

I'm running that phase, I'm learning.
Wish me so much luck.

A A A Alexa

I spent some time listening to Cornerstone.
Just fyi, I've been in love with Alex Turner since I was... errr 14? Yeah, 14.
Okay, he's great for sure...
but, his girl friend is even cooler. Geez, who doesn't like Alexa Chung?
I bet you do, like I do. ♥

95

1. what are three ways to win your heart?
well-behaved, honesty, and some talents.
2. do you like lightning?
yes I do love it. :)
3. have you ever cut someone else's hair?
yes, I have.
4. last person you said 'i hate you' to?
errr...
5. rain or sunshine?
rain
6. last stupid thing you said to anyone?
"eh lo jadi petinju aja".
7. biggest turn off?
got no dignity, please hold your pride
8. fave movie?
Corpse Bride
9. would you date someone who smokes?
yes
10. would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
no
11. what's your biggest turn on, physically?
piercing eyes, I can't stand.
12. would you have sex w. someone you weren't dating?
hell no!
13. have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?
everyone has, even the one who broke first.
14. have you ever dated someone more than once?
nooo
15. if you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
Alex Turner
16. what's your relationship status?
single
17. do you like cuddling?
not really
18. do you hold grudges?
nope
19. do you regret dating anyone?
errr...
20. hugger or kisser?
-_-"
21. missing someone?
nope, he's around :)
22. most important lesson you've learned from your exes?
love is understanding, eh?
23. are you happier single or in a relationship?
my happiness isn't determined by my status, at all.
24. how important are looks?
I adore charming guys, I don't care how they look like as long as they got their charm :P
25. would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone who was nice?
someone who was cool, somehow.
26. do you stay friends w/ the people you've dated?
sort of
27. would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
def no!
28. do you kiss on the 1st date?
Nope
29. if someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
Oh come on, hell no
30. some random girl comes up to you and says "who the hell are you"?
whatsoever
31. are you spoiled?
yes
32. name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?
abusers, liars, cheaters.
33. which one of your friends do you think would make a good prostitute?
LOL
34. did you miss anyone today?
I told you above
35. last person to see you cry?
errrrr
36. Who/what made you cry?
my mood
37. are you a forgiving person?
yes I am
38. would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
hell no, that's nuisance
39. the last person who gave me a hug....?
my mom :)
40. are most of your friends guys or girls? both of them
41. how long does it take you to get ready to go out ?15minutes
42. how many people do you know of named Adam ?
3
43. are any of your friends cheerleaders ?
yes
44. what was the last thing you burnt ?
matches
45. what is your full name?
FPL
46 what color is the bra you have on now ?
guess what
47. do you straighten your hair every day?
nope
48. do you worry about the size of your boobs?
nope
49. are you the typical girl who's addicted to gossip?
so so
50. what are your favorite girly magazines?
Nylon's the best
51. did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
noooo
52. did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
kind of
53. would you leave the house without makeup on?
often
54. what's the biggest turn on about guys?
kind-hearted
55. are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle? a waif one
56. is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?
geez
57. what's the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
a pair of jeans!
58. what color do you absolutely despise?
orange
59. have you ever stole?
yes, his heart :P
60. have you set your hair on fire?
nooo
61. do you wear sweat pants?
sometimes
62. do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
the adults
63. have you ever ran into a door because you didn't see it?
no
64. doesn't 50 Cent suck?
nope
65. do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo:))?
not really
66. do you act gangster?
errr
67. ever made a prank phone call?
(Y)
68. last kiss?
my mom :)
69. what bill do you hate paying most?
I hate no bills, I hate taxes
70. where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
what indicates romantic?
71. what did you want to be when you were growing up?
an architect
72. favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy?
chit-chatting
73. when did you first start feeling older?
now wahahaha
74. favorite guilty pleasure?
being sarcastic :P
75. what famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
Tim Burton, Chuck Palahniuk, and Ed Westwick
76. what famous person would you like to date?
Julian Casablancas
78. what do you hate about your school?
the hectic schedule
79. last person whose bed you laid in besides your own?
my mom
80. have you lost a friend recently?
no
81. ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
nooope
82. do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
yeees
83. is it easier to forgive, or to forget?
forget
84. do you give out second chances too easily?
never
85. is your best friend pretty?
For sure :D
86. is it awkward when you run into your exes?
no
87. have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yes
88. can you make yourself cry?
yes
89. is your life simple or complicated?
simple
90. are you easily confused?
yes
92. are you taller than 5'4??
yes :)
93. have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
hell nooooo
94. is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
yeaaah :)
95. does everything really happen for a reason? aaamin.

taken from Ardelia's.
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Happy Idul Fitri, Guys!

From the deepest heart, I apologize for all mistakes, whether it's written here or spoken out there, in our real lives.
Ramadhan may leave but the serenity and bliss will surround us, stay in our hearts;
lead us to the better way.

Minal aidin wal faidzin,
Ferinda P. Lestari
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I Just Couldn't Understand

I don't understand and maybe I will never understand;

We are amidst everyone's behaviour. We can't help talking bad about them. I just found it's harsh talking s* about random people or not-so-close friends when you know them just as shallow as their surface.

Do considering all factors like how close your relationship with them, how long you've known them. Sometimes people are talking s* just because.. yeah, they don't go in the same stream or they simply don't like or utmost they simply don't match each other.

It's practically unpleasant and non-sense . See and know by yourself then you can decide if they're good or no.

Just so you know, I always found judging someone stereotypely wistful , but talking about someone's minus based on other people's you-don't-know-whether-it's-true-or-no-plus-more-additional-feeling stories and points of view is... even more dire, more aggravating.

Like I always say, those who talk too much know nothing at all and those who know everything will keep quiet.

Have a nice day,
F
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Now I'm blogging from my BB!
Danke schön, Serra :)
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Doodles

the sun never shines too shiny and the wind never blows too breezy; it's true, we chill the day up.

"What the f* have you done lately, Rin?"

taken from here.

I can't stop asking myself that question.
I did bad, did faking a smile, did crying.
Errrrr- Weak.
Okay, forgive me for being emo, here. This is monthly.

Just wanna share one of my favourite quotes:

"This is me taking control from Sloane, from the fraternity, from Janice from billing reports, from ergonomic keyboards, from cheating girlfriends and sack a shit best friends. This is me taking back control of my life. What the f* have you done lately? - Wesley Gibson

Yes, I gotta take back control of my life. Everything else's secondary.

xoxo,
F

5 things you think about yourself
Accurate way?
very analytical, detail-oriented, lively, thinker, geek;
Emo way?
self-centered, emotional, moody, heart-breaker, sarcastic;
Narcissistic way?
spokeperson, wide-range of sighting and... more LOL;

5 things that you do
Stupid things that made you in accident?
playing around with the iron, and....... got burnt.
The most extreme thing you do?
I love water-sliding, and I've tried all even the highestt one.
Something you regret in life?
being fooled by emotion, blah, I'm turning into cooler form now.
Your current goal in life?
Saving people's lives, being a doctor.
Your quote/motto of the day that you do?
"I thank God for those who left and those who stay, God knows what best for us."
5 things about your appearance
Which body part you like?
all all all, but mostly lips
Which body part you dislike?
-
Acne problem?
-
If you have a tattoo, where will you put it?
-
Fetish?
internet + clothes + camera + books, geez and japanese food.
5 more things about you
Currently likes?
Rant and Choke
Currently dislike?
emptiness
Weakness?
suspicious mind
Ability?
memorizing languages
Extra ability?
speaking very fast without murmuring
Your 5 confession?
1. I am a different human being to everybody I meet.
2. I want many things at a time, really bad at setting up priorities.
3. Somehow I dislike people who love to judge stereotypely.
4. I love myself as well, I simply wanna vanish my curves and turn to be skinny.
5. I'm feeling grateful for everything God's given to me, every sparks and every freckles.
Perfection is perfectly boring.

taken from Istina's blog.

I Do Art

photos-courtesy of : Attika A. A.; Serra Annisa; Ferinda P. Lestari; Torik Danumaya

I did some photo-tutorials yesterday.
Those above are the stuffs. Which one is your favourite?

Captain of Sinking Ship

I took my love down to Violet Hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still

So if you love me
Won't you let me know?

Haters

I'm not gonna burn you in hell like any other girls will do to whom they hate.
Cause I don't have any intentions either to hate.
I'm pretty much sure
we are meant to be cool, in every spark, in every wink.
Love is somehow wickedly possesive. This is not.
We both fly, time will run us together, and sometimes it will separate our joy.

Don't bother, life is practically twisting you and me, forever.
Not as haters for sure.

Spell

The truth may speak as loud as it can, it got no differences.
Don't whisper to me, even the softest words would hit.
Cause it's you who speak.
I want to listen, I want to know.
Just so you know, I'd been waiting for so long to
listen that from your fragile lips.

And after all, I am okay. No need to worry.
We're cool, aren't we?

Freckles

• Life seems to be unfair. But, God is extremely fair.
• You can't guess what happen next..
• ..and you can't guess how feeling works.
• As cliche as you know, if you never try, you'll never know.
• Even the truth hurts, the lie could get you bruised even more..
• ..and being naive is no good at all,
• plus acting so childish won't make you cute.
• For putting someone in pain, you may got the pain back to you.
• Cursing won't make you feel better, yet even worse.
• People who talk too much, basically, know nothing at all.
• Wanna be shallow? Hating someone who literally doesn't have any direct mistakes to you.
• Envy proves you're no better than whom you envy.
  

♥FPL

What Happened to Me when I'm Writing Nothing for Days

1. Being sarcastic and cynical
I'll be the least lovely person you've ever met. Whatever words come out will be unamusing.
2. Being an antisocial
It's true, the melancholy side of mine will appear and I'd rather stay away from people.
3. Wrapped in sensitivity
I'm somewhat less-sensible and easily get mad.

Sounds dire? It is dire. I'm not trying to exagerrate, but all above are true.
That's why I come back here. To make a better environment for my surroundings. :P

My Kind of Boy

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in facebook to answer this. Then see what happens.

If you're a guy - post this as "my kind of girl"
If you're a girl - post this as "my kind of boy"

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
charming indeed.

2. Smart?
be able to do math very well

3. Preferred age?
same age or 2 years older

4. Preferred height?
taller than me

5. How about sense of humor?
not so important, i love cool guys but humorous one could be dazzling

6. How about piercing?
no thanks

7. Accepts you for who you are?
indeed

8. Pink hair?
bye bye

9. Mushy or no?
nope

10. Thin or fat?
thin thin thin

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
white, but tanned is better

12. Long hair or short hair?
as long as it looks cute on him :)

13. Plastic or metal?
metal LOL

14. Smells good?
Bvlgari Aqva

15. Smoker?
those who love you deep won't let you smoke
if i love him so much, i won't let him.

16. Drinker?
oh come on

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
not really

18. Muscular?
somehow

19. Plays piano?
yeaaay :)

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
even more cooler

21. Plays violin?
good good

22. Sings very good?
rockstar, i heart rockstar

23. Vain?
a bit

24. With glasses?
geek is awesome

25. With braces?
:)

26. Shy type?
not so shy one

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
in the middle

28. Active or passive?
passive

29. Tight or bomb?
tight

30. Singer or dancer?
musician

31. Stunner?
yay

32. Hiphop?
????????????

33. Earrings?
noooo thanks

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-un

til-you-drop?
cross

35. Dimples?
:):):)

36. Bookworm?
could be nice

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
text message please

38. Playful?
not really

39. Flirt?
depends on the situation

40. Poem writer?
LOL

41. Serious?
yes yes yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees

42. Campus crush?
wow

43. Painter?
yes

44. Religious?
(Y)(Y)(Y)

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
not really

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
games geek

47. Speaks 20 languages?
he could be my man LOL

48. Loyal or faithful?
faithful

49. Good kisser?
hmmm

50. Loves children?
not reallyyyy

taken from Istina's blog. Fun! just try.

Geez

I should get back to life, re-arranging evertyhing. Schedule, my life, and my heart.
then? comitted to them.

5 Stuffs You Might to Think Twice before Wearing Them unless You're as Cool as Posh Spice

5.Tie-Dye Shirts
Oh, come one. Those ain't looking good and they will never be, even if Posh Spice wore them.

4. Strappy High-heeled Sandals
Skip them for your own sake. There are gladiator heels or just simple stilettos to make you look gorgeous.

3. Too Dark Sunglasses' Lenses
You ain't a hollywood superstar, are you?
Even worse, some people wear that-dark sunglasess to do windowshopping at mall. Gee.

2. Forehead Band
It will only work for your coolness if you're having well-volumized and textured hair.
If not, just give a cross.

1. Fishnet Stockings
better save your money for a pair of light grey GAP socks than buying a pair of them.

Those Questions

• what's the point in envying ?
• what's the point in not accepting people just the way they are?
  
• what's the point in backstabbing?
• what's the point in cheating on your girlfriend?
• what's the point in lying to your mom?
• what's the point in distrusting your friend?
• what's the point in being flashy?
• what's the point in dressing trashy?
• what's the point in talking down?
• what's the point in stealing someone's boyfriend?
• what's the point in bullying?
• what's the point in cursing?
• what's the point in spreading someone's secret?
• what's the point in being a gossip-maker?
• what's the point in killing someone's feeling?

don't bother.
those above are daily happened in some people's lives, aren't they?
Pardon me. Are you into one of those questions? or maybe.... all questions?

LaLaL♥ve

see what the dentist did to me.

how am I? I am okay, but missing someone lately.

Wishlist and The Reason Why I Should Save My Money

• Paris Hilton fragrance, oxford shoes, lime green sneakers, Navy Blue Pliages Bag (I'm fond of tote bag lately), Navy Blue hard case for my bb, and some books.
  

btw, should I read The Host? is it good? tell me, dearests.

I Saw Him from a Different Angle with an Autofocus Lens

No name will be written here.
Let me keep his name to myself as a privacy and you guys just need to know the story.
I was no his acquintance, just like he was not an acquintance of mine.
So, we both knew each other just for.. a that's-it.

Some moments might bump us into each other, and no special feeling for true.
Time went by, he was an okay. He was a good friend and yes, he is.

So what was special there?
Nothing. Somehow I just feel that I owe him much for cheering my day up.
Unpredictable. unpredictable. unpredictable.
Surprising? 100%.
then if he were a lens, he would be an autofocus.

@erinsilverr

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I'm Considering Myself as a Geek

I'm missing you guys like hell. Really wanna type something here and speak my mind but catching up the lessons after a week off was not snapping your finger.

Lately things are utterly amazing, even in other way tiring.

I'm feeling grateful.

I'm back as a geek. still really wanna have one of RVCA's collections.

even my laptop is still out of order because of the attacks from viruses on Schoolympic. Gee.